Monday, 13 April 2020

1989 US, New Zealand, Fiji

15.9.89  Gatwick airport

Gatwick airport, North Terminal.  One day I will write a book about airports.  Their dynamics are so strange.  The mindless, time-consuming queuing, the smell of fear in the air, the cafés, the shops, the duty free (a nice concept, an enclave out of the country, but in it, sucked away by the air lanes they terminate).  The confluence and divergence of people, a secret masonry.  These places are nowhere, anywhere and everywhere.

The lottery of seats.  Optimising queues, judging which will move faster – the big family group or the stragglers.  Queue jumping, only to get it wrong.  Window seats for the day, but for the night?  Windows are undisturbed, but aisles have more room.  On a jumbo, side or centre?  The gamble of the centre, with four seats if you're lucky.  Never mind optimising for safety.  Another book: Playing the planes.

Sitting in the plane, waiting to take off.  Fifty rows of people staring at nothing.  It is like an audience waiting for a performance to begin, chatting, reading the magazines provided like programmes.  A long, thin auditorium, a forest of half heads, of varied human thatches.  Ten and a half hours to Los Angeles.  Long, long, long.  After a rum and coke, it all seems good – surreal, but good.  Here 300 of us are, sitting in a huge metal tube, passing over the Hebrides, hurtling towards Iceland.  The earth's geometry asserts itself.  Plane travel infantilises: you, eat, you sleep, you eat, you sleep.  You are cocooned and immobile, swaddled and entertained lest you become fractious.

16.9.89 Los Angeles

Los Angeles Times a civilised, if fractured read.  Signs o' the times: a report on ozone, carbon monoxide, nitrous oxide levels for parts of the town.  A dull, overcast morning – "the first rain since May" – ha!  Outside it is quite pleasant though.  I have been out to book a car for tomorrow – incredibly cheap at $40 for an Escort-sized car.  Today it looks like taxis everywhere – even I must resist walking – it really is too bi and too far everywhere.  As ever, it took an unexpected sight to place me in Los Angeles.  As I was coming out of Farmers Market, I happened to turn and glance up at the hills.  And there, in the hazy distance was the word which said "arrival": "Hollywood", uneven like bad teeth.

First things first: a taxi along – and I do mean long – Wilshire Boulevard to Farmers.  Buildings mostly low, parking very much in evidence.  The cars all rolling along equably, without haste – without even much congestion.  $8 for the trip – ouch.  Farmers Market itself rather factitious: rows of stalls selling neatly ranged fruit à la Kathmandu, meat, sweets.  I am forced to linger by heavy if intermittent rain, the air think with latent moisture.  I buy the National Enquirer – wacky enough – and the Daily World News – totally wacky.  As its name suggests, many of its stories global – including UK.  While wandering there, I turned a corner, and nearly bumped into a bloke – who leapt back and nearly threw a wobbly – a little unhinged.

Then walked (ha!) to the Los Angeles County Museum of Art – a splendid primitive facade, but nothing hangs together thereafter.  The collections themselves a total maze – suffering from the bane of US museums – donors' insistence on named rooms for their collections.  A few good pix – de la Tour's Magdalene, great Rembrandt of Stoffels.  The rooms almost deserted, which is a shame.  Exhibitions of Percival Foundation's stuff.  Modern collection unexciting.  Far better was the Page Museum of La Brea Tar Pits.  Passing to this you actually smell the tar still bubbling up – not a nice way to go.  The museum is small, but the complete skeletons are break-taking – the physicality of the bones hits you.  One surreal wall had around 200 wolves' skulls lit by an eerie orange background.  

I sit now after eating at the Plaza Café.  Opposite is the Japanese Pavilion, an interesting swirl of shapes.  But not for me today.  A parenthetic note: where are all the beautiful people?  They look as er, large, as any other Yanks…  From Los Angeles County Museum of Art to the Museum of Contemporary Art – 15 minutes in the cab, unbelievable: this city just does not hang together.  As I approach downtown, things get shabbier – and more Latino, including the billboard ads.  Finally to MOCA, but I actually want the Temporary Contemporary – a mile away.  So (foolishly) I walk.  When I get there, I find that over half is closed.  Pah.  And what there is includes Warhol's bloody Brillo boxes – which I've already seen once today.  What was amusing was that the building operations underway looked like an installation – particularly some very affirmative Rothkos – white on white… Walking back to MOCA I feel naked without the car's protective carapace.

MOCA is a good exhibition space, light and airy.  More people here – but nothing compared to the Tate, say, or even the ICA.  The very full show of Broodthaers gets rather silly after a while, as this kind of Dadaist/Magritte stuff often does.  However, things are redeemed by a video in the basement: using Wim Mertens' music,  Broodthaers's work is turned into a Tulse Luper-style artistic journey – pure Greenaway.  The Max Yavno show makes me sad: as photos often do – the sense of effort expended; it makes me glad I'm a wordsmith.  The Schreiber Gift again is full of itself.  The works are OK.  It is 1am body time, and the strain is beginning to show.

Watching the fountain just by the Music Centre: they change.  Intentionally?  It certainly works, captivating the eye and ear.  It's alive – you sense the particulate nature of water, rather than the continuum.  Brilliant idea – as in someone just playing?  There are four squares, with five jets one side of the squares, four on the other.  Sometimes one square is up, sometimes all; or they alternate.  The smack as they all fall down.  The baby jets, one foot off the ground, then Kraken-like, they rise to surging monsters.  Neatly, the water falls away invisibly; there is no pool.  So you have pure jets.  At the top the water is like an organic growth, a weird fungus.  White spray, white noise, always changing, always the same.

After an immensely long taxi ride ($23.50 – Andy Warhol eat your heart out), back to the comfort of the hotel – a long day, the body doing well.  Watched a Spanish channel for a while – I hear the future – then out to dinner.  To "Il Fornaio", just off Wilshire.  Atmosphere good – noisy, with Vivaldi in the background.  Alas, my starter – vitello tonnato – is off, as is the carpaccio; let's hope this ain't an augury.  Alas it was.  The food was good – and interesting – pickled aubergine, then smoked mussels and "angel's hair" – but the service went downhill and i dolcinon c'è.  And the place is now half empty; where is everyone?  It's Saturday night…

The smell of America is air conditioning.

17.9.89 Los Angeles

Unbelievable.  I am in Venice.

This morning I woke to a cold day, grey and overcast.  I went along early (8am) to pick up my Toyota from Budget – very cheap.  Then drove along the Santa Monica Boulevard, to Ocean Avenue, to Venice.  I sit now by the Ocean Front, just along from the Sidewalk Café.  It is a gorgeous day.  As the Pacific hove into view, the sun broke through high clouds.  Now the sky is almost clear, the sun hot and strong – even for 9.15am; there is a glorious sea breeze.  The mountains are still shrouded in mist.  The beach is clean and clear – few people around, just a few cyclists, roller-skaters.  Palm trees everywhere.  Driving is a dream.  Roads empty, and no one in a hurry.  Everything is well signposted – especially transverse roads.  It is so peaceful here.  But the canals – such as there are – are sad: swamps at one end, rather unloved.  Looking south, the scene is cosy and domestic rather than grand.  The palm trees along the banks are disconcerting.

From Venice to Greece.  Or rather the J. Paul Getty Museum.  Not as far as I thought, just along the Pacific Highway.  Then off to the right, up a steep drive, parking underneath the villa.  All very efficient.  Nice to know I really did phone Malibu at 1am one night.  The entrance to the villa is spectacular.  A long pond surrounded by a peristyled porch all round.  Clipped hedges and statuary everywhere.  On the walls Pompeian-style frescoes.  This is a beautiful setting for a select collection.  The British Museum and Louvre overpower and get in the way; this is manageable.  In the first room, archaic stuff.  Beautiful Cycladic figures of women, a proud kouros, an interesting inscription, fine sculptures.  In the next, a magnificent bronze: "the victorious athlete", the right-hand fingers delicately preening an absent laurel.  Fountains plash everywhere: there is an inner peristyle garden and then even an atrium pool.  I am half way through, and sit by the tea-room, facing east, with another fountain nearby.  The sky is an amazing blue, the sun high and increasingly fierce.  California dreamin'.

I re-enter the villa – the cool smell is almost like an Italian museum...almost.  The painting collection is much more extensive than I thought.  A nice David, a couple of Canalettos, but best of all the late Rembrandt of St Bartholomew: could easily be early Kokoschka.  Amazing.  Good Dutch generally, three or four Ruisdaels.  A surprising number of people now: where did they put their jam jars?  I see all these Americans looking diligently at all this culture, but where are their roots?  Culture is like cyberspace, a world of information you traverse from familiar points. 

Back, then, inevitably, to Venice.  Lots more traffic – and lots of people on the beach.  I decide, as only a mad Englishman can, to walk to the pier at Santa Monica.  A long way.  The beach is marvellous, wide and clean.  Huge breakers roll in.  Out to sea there are lots of boats – a stuff breeze must make perfect weather.  Lots of very tanned bodies – that glorious mahogany colour.  No topless at all – and this is California.  I can see why this should be such a sybarite's paradise.

I am sitting on the pier, tatty, but without the faded gentility of England's piers.  Characteristic sight: cops on beach scooters.  Reminds me of yesterday, seeing the park keepers blowing away leaves with reverse vacuum cleaners.  The mountains behind me are hazy, like Italy.  The beachside architecture is uninspired.  The beach reminds me of Cabourg.  Huge kites flap (or should that be "skirl"?) in the wind.  A planes takes off from LAX.  

Another long, slow walk, this time along the boardwalks (à la Trouville…).  Pass an amazingly graceful lady trampolinist.  Back to Venice.  Which is buzzing.  The place to be, clearly.  Everywhere, more bronzed bodies.  Some of the women...particularly affecting are the shorts and cowboy boots: put a pair of birch trunk-like legs in them and you're away.  I sit now in the Sidewalk Café.  Very studenty.  Noisy, full of smoke, the smell of beer, voices and music.  The sun is low above the water, which has turned to silver, then gold.  Could we hope for a sunset?  Humanity (ish) streams by outside.  People are roller-skating in here.  (Parenthetically, in true Venice style, two blokes were weaving their bikes around – standing upright on them.  Very impressive to watch. 

After a rather unsatisfactory meal – note: abalone does not mean abalone – I drive back to Santa Monica, then up to Hollywood Boulevard.  Bright and brash, near everywhere.  Sunset Boulevard, in contrast, is dead.  Driving in Los Angeles is natural in a way that walking is not.  With an automatic and power steering – even on my little Toyota Tercel – everything is creamy smooth.  The amazing thing is, even with all these powerful jamjars, no one really pushes it, even away from the lights.

18.9.89 Los Angeles

My last day in LA.  Walking round Beverley Hills – almost a sensible thing to do – not too drawn out.  There are even a few tourists here – photographing shops with their camcorders (uh?).  A warm morning, with big fluffy clouds breaking the sky's blue.  But there is nothing here.  Hundreds of clothes shops, restaurants – the perfect image of a narcissistic, hedonistic, but fundamentally vapid society.  Watching rush hour, I am amazed at the flash cars everyone drives – or am I just parochial?

Thereafter, a walk up Canon Drive to the Beverley Hills hotel, back down Beverley Drive.  The houses scream money.  Hispanic gardeners abound, even the grass by the road has plumbed-in sprinklers.  Styles clash and juxtapose in a very American way: colonial, modern, black and white, hacienda, gingerbread, Queen Anne.  All have signs saying "armed security".  What do all these people do?

Lunch at Kate Mantilini's – for some reason one of my guide books insists this is to do with a female fight promoter; perhaps it is, but whatever happened to Dickens?  The main room is long and high, an irregular rectangle.  Over the bar and kitchen is a curved mural – a multiple exposure/fractured view of a K.O.  A mysterious ballerina – Kate herself? - hovers.  To the east, a windows lets in light onto an arty metal construction, with fragments of the mural.  Everything is black and white and chrome.  It fronts Wilshire, providing a view onto the curious world.  The food was quite good – and excellent chicken soup, followed by crab cakes – the lamb's brain omelette was off (luckily?  - but no BSE here – I think).  Apple pie with cheddar unspecial.  But overall, a nice buzz, and a good farewell to LA.  A long, lingering lunch at Kate's, then a stroll back to the hotel – along the way I am stopped and asked directions by a northerner – north England, that is.  Typical.  Now I sit in the blazing sun by a bronze fountain – City Hall (?). 

LAX a fairly civilised place; too civilised.  It is too controlled and controllable.  I hanker for the madness of Kathmandu, or of late-night Denpasar.  I need the thrill of mild panic.  China was for good for that too.  In a paradoxical way, air travel exposes the primitive nature of it all: imagine all this fuss, just to move a few chemicals.

20.9.89 Rotorua

Whatever happened to Tuesday?

The flight to Auckland was long: 15½ hours with stopover.  It was good to experience the immensity of the Pacific – twice the distance of the Atlantic.  It put you in touch with what the Polynesians – and to a lesser extent Cook – achieved.  We stopped off in Papeete, but rather than tantalising myself in the duty free lounge, I slept on the plane.  Which was fully, and had difficulty taking off.  It felt like a total granny flight – or perhaps everyone in New Zealand is old.  I think I may have problems with the 30s pace of life.  I am sitting in a bus outside the airport, waiting to transfer.  It is surprisingly cold – and this is in the north.  Yergh.

I am in Rotorua, with a hard, brilliant sun in an almost clear blue sky.  There is nonetheless a real nip in the air, but pleasant.  There is also the pervasive smell of bad eggs: Rotorua is the town of the perpetual fart.  In front of me is the croquet lawn – with games in progress – and a totally immaculate bowling green.  I am faced by Tudor Towers – a red and white creation that was once one of the main spa houses.  Now it houses a rather nugatory museum – but then I am a connoisseur of such things.  Behind me, pools billow steam.  Rotorua is low broad streets, and looks like it was built yesterday.  Which it was.  The flight in a Hawker-Siddeley twin prop showed me a land alternating arable, pasture with forests.  The odd volcano peeped through low clouds.  

A crazy lunch at an Austro-Hungarian restaurant – run by an Austrian.  We are all so far from home.  Excellent food that seems strangely out of place.  New Zealand feels as I imagine Mars or some future colony will feel: everything goes on normally, but the past and culture are distant references.  Perhaps hell/heaven is like this, eternal white water rafting etc. - but not angst, nothing to create art.  It's raining, but who cares?  I'm in hell.  Sulphur all around, and the guts of the earth pouring forth.  It is very disconcerting seeing a huge blue-green pool of boiling water.  You know all of this comes from hell.  I've never seen geysers before: they're rather impressive – you feel they go down thousands of miles.  There's something totally indecent about these huge gloops of battleship grey mud as they leap up, frog-like, a cheap horror film effect.  Or like strange sea monsters, blowing steam through breathing holes.  [I have just noticed that this place is Ngmokaihoho: the Frog Pool.]

Back to the hotel for a needed kip: my body clock is 13 hours out from local time; doing pretty well considering.  Then along to the Hyatt for a hangi – well, it had to be done.  Round the swimming pool unfortunately, so it got colder and colder.  The food was lots of fish, venison (?), tree-tomatoes – quite good.  The music split quite interestingly.  The first piece was sacred and photos not allowed.  The singing was more sprechstimme than voice – and affecting.  Thereafter it was a kind of syrupy Victorian melody – with strumming guitar.  The old tongue sticking out and wild eyes was curiously disturbing.  I had a real sense of an ancient warlike culture.  And so to bed.

21.9.89 Wellington

A cold but beautiful morning, red sky.  But problems.  As I had had a strange premonition of, the hotel blithely told me that my passport and money were in the safe – which had a time-lock until 7am.  My flight left at  7am.  In the end, a manager was dragged out of bed and the time-lock proved not so formidable.  In any case, I had already devised two backups.  What fun.  Driving out to the airport, watching the steam rise from the land everywhere, I was struck by how pervasive Maori names were here.  You could tell this was a centre.  In Rotorua itself, the Maori people were unobtrusive, well integrated.  At least they didn't seem much of an underclass.  But I wonder what they really think.

The flight glorious.  I pass over the huge Lake Taupo – mistaking it for the sea – and then have stunning views of the great northern volcanoes – Ngauruhoe and Ruapehu.  It was picture postcard stuff: now brown volcanic rock, rising in a perfect cone with spines, all topped in icing sugar snow.  Landed in a cold Wellington – I hope the south is not too cold.  Staying at the TAS Hotel – rather modern – in the TVC building.

Walking through Wellington is pleasant.  It is small-scale but varied and interesting.  Out to the Beehive Parliament building, then back past the "Temporary Contemporary" – sounds familiar.  A nice exhibition space for modern stuff.  Then back to the centre, to the main concert hall, which is unspectacular – and seems to have little going on.  Also stopped off in the City Art Gallery – again temporary.  Timely exhibition on Wellington past and present, and what they are doing to it.  The mayor sounds a right cluck.  Lunch at the City Limits Café – for the name if for nothing else – clearly the trendy place.  Then to the opera house – also unimpressive – to Downstage to buy tickets for Inside Out's "The Love and the Beloved" based on Carson McCullers' The Ballad of the Sad Café at 6.30pm this evening.

I sit now in the wonderful Polynesian Gallery of the National Gallery, listening to chants, jew's harps, conch shells etc.  The displays really tap into the Oceanic magic for me, this sense of kith and kin across a million square miles, unity within diversity, the courage and indomitability.  Wonderful.  Surrounded by these proud and plangent musics, I find it hard to leave here after nearly an hour just sitting and listening and seeing with my inner eye.  Oceania.  

I buy a couple of tapes at the museum, but unfortunately I ask whether there is somewhere else; I am told about Tala's.  I go there, wandering back into town.  It turns out to be a real treasure-trove of Polynesian pieces – books, tapes etc.  I have to spend some money – but unable to carry it all, I'll get it sent back to the UK.  So much to read.  I am further weak – and buy a book of poems by Fleur Adcock – New Zealander originally, apparently – plus the Penguin book of New Zealand verse – new to me.  I am now in the Theatre Downstairs – a good space.  The performance by Inside Out is dramatic, very Edinburgh Fringe in its disjunctions, its love of the dramatic gesture, its looping and swooping verbals.

22.9.89 Wellington

Raining (again).  Up to St Peter's Anglican church.  And it is very Anglican, as you would expect, since the church has, by its very nature, to preserve its customs, its doxologies.  A wooden church, smelling of East Anglia.  By cable car to the Botanic Gardens.  Inevitably, I am reminded of Hong Kong – but also a day in Naples when I drank one of the best cappuccinos ever before ascending.  Writing this, I also remember the halls of the national museum by the harbour – and failing to find some paintings.  It was shortly after the earthquake there; hotels were nearly all full.  The one I stayed in was a tip.  Much of Pompeii was closed.  I saw a pure albino walking down the street like an alien amidst all these dark-haired, dark-skinned people.

It is very windy here, cold but with some sunshine.  Wellington lies before me, so small.  The harbour is a complicated design; low clouds touch its hills.  In the Botanical Gardens are huge – ten feet high – ferns with palm-tree like trunks.  It feels like autumn, but is spring.  On the way up, the car was full of schoolkids - who seem to start late – 10am.  I've noticed that many schoolboys wear shorts even in their teens.  The girls are almost uniformly dumpy: US girls know how to hold the muscles in their faces; NZ girls have not a clue.

Wellington must be as London was in the eighteenth century: everyone knew everyone, news travelled fast, you can walk everywhere.  Exciting in its own way.  There are a surprising number of Maoris in Wellington.  It is hard to get a handle on this place – the fact that I am the other side of the world to England: 12,000 miles of magma… I wonder to where Wellington is truly antipodean… I shall have to work it out.  What is people's perception of their lives here?  So much of TV, etc. is UK stuff; a fair amount of news picks up on Blighty too.  [Back in City Limits again, for coffee.  It feels like a café: a place where you stop and talk or think.  Music in the background – just turned up as I write.]

Last night and this morning, reading some new poetry books, Adcock and Penguin.  I really love poetry, the heightened sense of every word.  I have a fairly clear idea of the kind of stuff I want to -and believe I can – write.  I must try when I get back.  Trolley buses outside.  The phones a strange mish-mash – UK-type push buttons, and the same models – plus Irish button A, button B types.  To the old Bank of New Zealand building which noses into the traffic stream like Broadcasting House, or the Flatiron building.  Inside for an odd event: "Face Value" from Jordan & Co..  Again, very Edinburgh Fringe: four female dancers, electronic music, lots of vague floating symbolism, fresh grass cuttings.  As often, the venue made it: the Corinthian columns, the stamped metal ceiling masquerading as mouldings.    God knows what it was about: I suspected it was to do with the threatened demolition of BNZ, but the later death stuff seemed not to fit this.  Fun though – in a "young" sort of way.  Pleased to see the two characters from last night's performance there too – with young kids, about one and three years old, both clearly enjoying it – the three-year-old girl with wonderful histrionic gestures already.

I am eating at La Cantina – a Mexican restaurant (uh?). I must go to Mexico.  After lunch, to the Maritime Museum down by the harbour.  Again, it feels so English, with its sea shanties and displays of knots.  It also feels of another era, as it is: I wonder if air travel will one day seem as romantic; I expect so.  One searing exhibit: the sinking of the Titanic.  I had not realised so many had died – and that it was lack of lifeboats – only about half the necessary number.  What a terrifying three hours that must have been.  Also telling: it so "happens" that the proportion of first class saved is rather higher than of second and especially third class passengers.  Terrible.  And then it sank two miles down – inconceivable distance, and to think they found it too.  10,000 feet.  How long did it take to reach the bottom?  Many minutes, doubtless.  After failing to ascend to the observation platform of the Vogel building -  non c'è – I am sitting in the beautiful Old St. Paul's Cathedral – a lovely rich wooden church.  It feels almost Anglo-Saxon – reminds me of the church in Oslo, built of staves, and of the church in East Anglia.

I like watching TV in hotels – even in England, where it has a novel, sybaritic quality.  But abroad is even better: there it is a window on other worlds – better, it is that world's self-image.  Thus the ads are an indicator, as are news programmes.  It is also interesting to see what they take – Doctor Who, Neighbours, Coronations St. - and what they adapt – the omnipresent "Sale of the Century".  I am now at the Monsoon Restaurant – chiefly because there are not that many Burmese restaurants around, so it seemed worthy trying one. Wellington destroyed much of its Victorian heritage, apparently; but what remains is attractive.  Moreover, its new buildings are tolerably appealing and varied.  Excellent meal.  One idiosyncrasy of New Zealand – and anywhere else? - is the BYO – Bring Your Own.  One of these tiny government decisions on licensing which have fundamentally changed the way people behave socially.  Wellington fair bustles at 8pm – fair number of shops open – young people out – eateries.  Nice.

23.9.89 Christchurch

Another early morning flight.  These work really well: my body clock is happy and it means that I don't waste any time in the new town: it is 8.15am and I am sitting in room no. 5 of Warner's Hotel, looking out at Christchurch Cathedral.  The flight showed me the spine of mountains I must cross.  A beautiful sunny morning – really spring-like.  Driving from the airport I pass rows of Japanese maples in blossom, and young-leaved willows by Cambridge-style streams.  The city looks really attractive.

I am sitting in the Dux de Lux Café – healthy eating for a change; the sun continues to stream down.  My progress has been extraordinary: flights nearly daily, then to hotels, investigating cities – real, concentrated life.  I think I could live in hotels.  Mine – Warner's – is a lovely turn of the century building.  It smells of stale beer and cold rooms.  It is the instant cosseting, the perfect, contained worlds.  First I went to the Botanical Gardens, beautiful in the cold early morning.  Surprisingly big and well tended.  Then to the cathedral, to ascend the tower.  A narrow, winding staircase.  I have no problems with that or with height – although in the belfry there is a very steep ladder leading still higher.  I mount it, only to find the trapdoor locked.  I suddenly feel rather unsafe…

Later to the town hall, a square not quite working.  Then to Dux – nice atmosphere, reggae etc. Booming away.  I keep thinking of Chichester (the other one…).. Note: everyone seems to have such appalling chins here…  But it is very English, not just the name – Cambridge, Oxford, Worcester, at al. - not just the Avon river, the cathedral: the totality.  

I can still taste the white Zinfandel in Kate M's…

After lunch and a moment of weakness at the university bookshop (Barber CD) to the museum.  Small and – dare I say it? - quaint.  I delight in wandering through its random, small-town collection.  I am terrified by the huge turning globe: am I that far from home?  Idiot realisations: dinosaurs really existed; meteorites came from out there...aargh.  Then to the McDougal Art Gallery, a small, intimate space, with some unexpected modern art: almost a shock in this paragon of suburban virtues.  A refreshing shock.  Back to the Botanical Gardens, a wander through the greenhouse – what a smell, of Kew, of the Golden Gate Park – to sit in the gorgeous sun.  The sky a perfect dome of blue.  "Set tea" in the gardens restaurant – all I seem to do is eat – turns out to be incredibly sweet cakes and sandwaggers.  Brings back memories of a certain Grantchester cream tea – was it really a few years ago?

It is noticeable that many of the tourist signs are also in Japanese – who are, indeed, all over New Zealand – and the world.  The change has been dramatic in the last few years.  Travelling in New Zealand is strange and unthreatening – I think this is because I am so near the sea, which feels like a way out.  Compare this with Nepal or Samarkand: wherever I travel in these places I feel a million miles from anywhere – and correspondingly more threatened.  In this respect Oceania is the negative of Asia: pockets of land in an expanse of water.  

I visit the Arts Centre, which is bustling, and visit and exhibition called "Sex & Signs": heavy stuff.  My eye is caught particularly by one bloke's work using logic symbols.  Then for some reason I went to the Metro Cinema to see "Powaqqatsi".  The cinema was small but the screen and sound was good.  Alas, the film was not.  Lots of stunning images: the opening pit of hell, thousands of workers crawling up slimy mud, the 90 degree short of a plane passing over a flat.  But there was no real thread to the images or the music.  The latter was really coasting: no energy, just film music pure and simple.  Then a good meal at Italian Palazzo del Marinaio – fish restaurant run by a Maltese.  Tried a good New Zealand Chablis.  Still dreaming of that Zinfandel, though…

24.9.89 Franz Joseph Glacier

Breakfast in the tiny dining room.  In the background an old Pye (valve?) radio with a booming bass has children's time – including Tom & Jerry narrated...yikes.  A cloudy morning.  A final walk in the Botanic Garden to see the amazing cherry trees – Housman eat your heart out.  Then to the Art Centre's "Le Café" for an early lunch before car up.  Glorious sunshine again… Earlier the bells were playing, all so English.

What can one say about Arthur's Pass.  Except that it like Kashmir, Nepal, Scotland, the Lake District, the Alps?  Approaching on the arrow-straight road from Christchurch is awe-inspiring.  Across the whole horizon is this curtain of mountains.  As you head towards it, it looms up in front of you.  Practically no other cars around.  There are lone bridges over the nearly-dry rivers that remind me of Bali.  The landscape generally is like the ascent to Kashmir: fairly barren, with huge snow-capped peaks all around.  I am quite near the snow-line: must be hairy in winter.  But now the sun is roaring down through the atmosphere.  And the scenery just goes on: a lake, more peaks, constantly varied.  The only odd thing is the state of the road: you expect it to be a worn out Himalayan track – this is too neat.  Perhaps I really am in New Zealand.  As I approach Arthur's Pass, I can see clouds ahead: the west coast's.  I can also see trees on the mountains like a huge hairy cloak – the rain, I presume.  Before now is a vast dry river bed and a wooded mountain; the railway has rejoined us.  Arthur's Pass next.

Perhaps inevitably, Arthur's Pass is nothing special.  But the landscape has changed and is dramatically wooded, like the gorge of Delphi, a huge cleft opens up.  I descend to Otira for tea.  Now I am in a huge river valley; the sun is glinting on the water as it winds its way across the gravel.  Huge tree-covered hills on each side: a gigantic version of Black Moss Bottom in the Lake District. Amazingly the scenery got better.  I was in a huge broad valley, with snow glistening on surrounding mountains.  The latter are lushly covered with forests.  Even as the valley winds down, the peaks are huge.

The sea.  What was striking was the difference of each side of the watershed: one arid and Himalayan, the other lush and Scandinavian.  The journey along the coast was long, long, long.  And strangely lonely.  Normally driving alone has no effect on me.  But here human habitation – and even fellow cars – were so few  that the sense of isolation was extreme.  I really felt that I was in New Zealand, at the end of the world.  Some impressive lakes along the way.  The sea alongside, glinting crazily.  Nearing the glaciers, some hairy gradients.  Mists billowing down from the mountains – not good for tomorrow.  Amazing the UK place names: Oxford, Sheffield – a constant hankering perhaps.  The same on the news: the football results, even the Scottish leagues.  In fact, there seems to be little New Zealand news to lead with.

In the evening, after a four-course meal with New Zealand lamb – yummy – TV.  Very interesting interview with one Palmer, the Prime Minister of New Zealand.  Ex-Attorney General, very articulate, very calm – in short, very impressive.  Then University Challenge (ha!) - set the pulse racing – the same student unfunny wheezes – pretending to smoke pipes, silly subjects.  Then more Brit sitcoms – I'm surprised the Kiwis don't get sick of us all.  Everything is sponsored: the prizes on University Challenge, the subtitles on programmes – it's like a parody of US TV.

Oh, and gorse: I forgot to mention the blanket of flames, yellow everywhere, this side of the watershed.

25.9.89 Wanaka

Fantastic early morning: crisp air, blue sky, low sun catching the hills and the trees.  But it can't last.  In fact, I am lucky.  We took off at around 9.45am, and the sky was patchy clouds.  I don't think I've been in a light aircraft before: helicopter, yes, in New York.  It's quite visceral, and the sense of take-off more prepared, more real, more worrying.  Also the physicality of the turning is more.  Nice.  Brilliant views on the way up.  One thing that is so strange is this semi-tropical vegetation – a product of the more than 200 inches of rainfall.  First Franz Joseph, a great shattered slug, starting pure white and then getting dirtier as it gets older.  The cracks like wounds, incisions in a whale's back.  Rock-like, with gashes of blue.  A huge cornucopia.  Mount Cook and Mount Tasman gleaming.  Then Fox glacier, more of the same, but better.  And this time, we're going in.

First the crazy pilot lands downhill – what?  It's terrifying because it clearly won't work.  In fact, he's testing the wind.  He turns and lands the other way around, facing uphill.  Also terrifying – it brings back all the worst memories of skiing, the lack of control, the fear of falling over.  Up there is magic.  Perhaps the most total silence I have ever heard.  The sky ink-black – we are 6,000 feet up – and the snow with deep blue cracks in it.  My feet sink a foot through the crust.  It is another world, so pure and perfect.

Going south I find/bring better weather.  Stop in Bruce Bay, huge rollers pounding the shore.  The hills are enormous, isolated humps, furred with foliage.  I stop in Haast beach at a real out-of-the-way hotel/motel, like something out of a US B-movie.  But the weather is turning perfect – hard blue sky, scorching sun, but refreshing cool air.  Then inland towards the Haast pass.  It is like the reverse of yesterday's trip: first a huge river plain, covered in grey gravel, with a snaking flow of water.  Then up, through Spanish-style countryside, across a huge flat pass, then across the watershed to Lake Wanaka, where I now am.  A totally stunning sight – I am about 70 feet about the water, which gives a great view.  Opposite a range of bare, awesome rocky mountains, the tallest still topped with snow, and all reflected in the miles-long lake.  Barely a cloud in the sky.

[Parenthetically, one thing I forgot to mention yesterday: a frightening experience crossing one of those one-lane bridges.  Bad enough, but this was a combined road and rail bridge.  Never mind the problem of what to do if a train comes, the rails were problems enough.] [Ouch – mozzies.]

I am now gawping at Lake Hawea.  There are yuccas (?).  A lot of rocks have a heavy purplish hue.  Now that the sun is on the way down, the chunky scrunched-up nature is more apparent.  Cicadas whirr, birds twitter, sheep baaah.  What amazing walking land this must be.  And here, at least, I feel there is somewhere I could return to in 50 years to find little changed.  But where else?  I also forgot to mention that much of the road from Haast has been unmetalled – a bit dodgy with no barriers either.  But worth it.

This is a very peaceful holiday – not stressed like some.  Perhaps now, at the midpoint, sitting in Relishes Café in Wanaka, listening to Tracey Chapman over loudspeakers, staring at the lake, the sun streaming in, after tea and malt cake, this is the still centre of it all.  One by one, the noises of the day are going home on Lake Wanaka.  I decided to stay here rather than hack on to Queenstown.  It seemed so peaceful.  And so it is, once the water-jets and the power boats have gone.  Now I sit on the gravelly strand, with the setting sun before me, a pillar of wavering fire in the water. [Now the bloody hovercraft is out again.  Give me strength…]  Banks of clouds are beginning to fold over the most Westerly mountains; but here the sky is perfect blue.

The sun's rays are starting to cast long shadows: looking across them, I can see a great black slab – just as in Lake Srinagar.  The heat from the rays is remarkable, even though the air already is beginning to gain a certain bite. A willow tree, newly in leaf, glows from the low sun as if lit from within.  Nearby, I passed two tees whose colours were so intense and unique they looked as if airbrushed.  A huge dark layer of cloud is approaching from the north like an alien spacecraft twenty miles wide. Imagine it.  

This reminds me of Lake Phewa in Pokhara – a civilised, tamed version.  But as with everywhere in New Zealand, I am conscious of the lack of (Western) history, the lack of temporal depth for me.  This is what distinguishes these Himalayan landscapes from the real thing: there, you have a sense of people journeying since time immemorial. I had hoped for gorgeous sunset-tipped peaks à la Pokhara: alas, the cloud is winning.  But the sun is a huge ball of fire, a million miles across.  And now it is going, going.  Gone.  As the pillar of fire crept towards me, it went out.  But the light still catches the bank to my right, making it glow intensely green as all goes cold.

Back to Relishes for dinner.  Excellent food and a good buzz.  Then out to stare at the stars – inadvisedly, since it terrifies me, the sense of distance.  The brightness and sharpness are amazing: you realise why the Greeks spent so much time studying what were such blatant facts.  Also how the Polynesians could navigate by them – they were not so ignorable as our poor stars.  The Milky Way – I think – visible, horribly so.

26.9.89 Te Anau

[I'm losing track of the days here: Tuesday?]

Up early: at 6.30am the rising sun reverses its decline last night.  A band of light catches the mountains to my left, making them look like butter.  Generally overcast, but with promise of better weather.  I drive to Queenstown becoming sadly blasé about all this beauty: it is too unremitting, too undifferentiated.  I long for variety or historicity.  

Queenstown small and bustling; I book a room for tomorrow, then on down to Te Anau.  I find that as time wears on, I am driving faster and faster.  But I cover distances.  Since I am becoming saturated, there seems little point hammering on to Milford – especially without accommodation.  Instead, I stay at very first motel – which turns out to be very similar to a hotel, but cheap.  Down to the lake to book a trip for this afternoon – the weather seems to be turning.  Then to the Jail House Café – cheap, and distinguished by the Ivesian polyphony of space invaders and radio. I had feared that the trip across to the glow-worms would be naff.  The boat trip was unspectacular – the weather had turned cloudy, so although we could see the mountain from close-up, there was not m uch else.  Except the information that the depth went down about 1300 feet – that sense of sheer distance again.

Then into the cave.  First a bent shuffle into cold air.  Rustling water omnipresent: gnats too.  Impressive that they managed to build the walkways.  Then we boarded a boat – a metal tin, rather.  Filled to the gunwales, it seemed only inches higher than the water – at 5°C.  It was manhandled by one bloke pulling us along on a chain.  A further walk to a small landing stage, then, another tin boat.  The lights went out.  Suddenly hundreds of tiny lights overhead.  And no other sense of direction of distance or space.  It was exhilarating but also frightening – you felt so exposed, your head fragile.  It was like navigating galaxies with new stars heaving into view.  After a while I lost all sense of travel, and so I was surprised to see light – and people ahead.  We had turned round and come back – but I was till in there, 200 metres under the hillside.  Amazing.  

I am finding New Zealand TV irresistible – if only because it is (a) bad and (b) shows me all the programmes I never see in the UK – "Neighbours" et al.  The one characteristic programme is "Holmes" – a kind of local Robin Day – even looks like him, but with a better sense of humour.  Crayfish, salmon and boysenberries – a kind of cross between blackberries and raspberries – at Kepler's Restaurant.  Yummy.

27.9.89 Queenstown

Unexpectedly, and undeservedly a fine morning.  I drive out to Manapouri to catch the boat on my day trip.  The trouble with New Zealand, I have decided, is that it is too familiar: it has so/too much in common with Blighty, that it really is just an extension of it, an island off Ireland, perhaps.  Very beautiful, calm. - but insufficiently different to make it worth visiting often.  Apparently I crave this basic exoticism in my travels, a thrill of difficulty and strangeness.

Down inside the earth again: to the main hall of the hydroelectric station – like a hymn to a Russian constructivist power.  The low hum and harmonics a great symphony, the simple granite walls – undressed – and the metal pillars like a temple.  The warm smell of engineering.  Eerie descent down 2 kilometre tunnel, 360 degree circuit. Blasted rock, unsupported.  

On the way to Doubtful Sound.  Stopping – the view of vertiginous mountains – 4,000 feet – thickly wooded: this must be what England was once like.  The smell of ferns, dampness in the air.  High valleys catching the light breaking through the clouds.  So much greenery.  Stopping at the top of the pass: mist swirling, but Doubtful Sound visible through a hole punched out.  Everywhere around huge birch trees clogged up with moss which chokes and kills.  

To go back to the beginning – or near it.  The journey from Manapouri was miraculously in sunshine.  I sat on the top deck, gradually freezing.  It reminded me of Lake Saimaa, as the wooded islands passed by.  And so I remember the almost feverish excitement of that trip as I suddenly decided to enter for Kennedy and Harkness Scholarships – the latter of which I damn near got: 23rd out of 20 – to study Russian and Polish at Harvard.  How would life have been then?

I began to feel that I was finally getting away from civilisation; that I was at the ends of the earth.  Perhaps, in part, this is what I look for in a trip – a sense of maximum distance.  Then to the power station.  It turns out this amazing feat was largely to bribe an aluminium smelter to come to New Zealand.  Howsoever, it has a glory of its own.  The descent by access tunnel was truly bizarre – driving on the right, too.  As I have already described, the main hall, hewn from solid granite, was a modern cathedral, with its choir of turbines humming away in divine accord.  Then we drove over the pass – imagine bringing 200 tons over that, past 1200 foot waterfalls and these crazy vertiginous valleys reaching up to four or five thousand feet.  Down to the deep cove – so deep that the jetty is cantilevered...in place the fjord is 1500 feet deep – yikes.

The trip, even in the grey swirling weather, one of majesty.  We turn left into the western arm, and pass mountains like woolly stegosauri, a huge scooped-out valleys curving sharply away.  This place is practically untouched: I have a sense of human eyes – Maoris – seeing it.  Pristine, virgin.  The engines are shut off, and we listen to the silence.  Back the way we came, I start reading "The Bone People" again, with a little more enjoyment.  But it is so over-written

I drive back to Queenstown.  Stunning scenery as ever, but I am cold and want my hotel room.  Which is nice: fourth floor of the Park Royal with fine view over the lake.  Dinner at The Cow – an enormous mouth-burning pizza – once I have found the damn place.  Unfortunately surrounded by tourists – euro and yank trash. Then to TV.  I flip between a curious 60s vehicle with Antony Hopkins and other Brits, then watch a Brit film on the Holocaust, more particularly on the camps.  Auschwitz: four million.  The de-humanisation which begins with the shearing of hair, the tattooing of a number.  The loss of family.  As they said, it does need to be shown regularly.  Lest we forget.

28.9.89 Queenstown

Much of the above written sitting on my balcony, watching the changing clouds and patterns of light on the chocolate brown mountains.  I am now sitting beneath the waters of Lake Wakatipu in Underwater World.  In front of me, huge eels squirm like nightmare phalluses.  There are also ducks and enormous trout.  It is a very odd experience.  The intertwining, wrinkled eels are disgusting yet fascinating.

About yesterday: it was real because I was pierced to the bone by the wind – I felt I was there.  And remembering other experiences that are burnt into memory, I was frequently uncomfortable – shades of Cellini and the salamander.  This is another reason that New Zealand is slightly passing me by: I have not suffered enough.  Travel = travail.  If it is too easy, we remain at home.  This is the trouble, I feel that I have travelled 13,000 miles to reach a parallel UK.  Another thing: New Zealand not only has no smell of its own, it has no food (rather like the UK).  When I go elsewhere I have eaten food strongly flavoured by the place; here it is all-too cosmopolitan.  Even the US has its delis.  The point is I needed an alternative mindset to engage with.  

After the eels, up by gondola to the top of the hill overlooking Queenstown.  I am still not quite sure how these gondolas connect with the continuous steel cable.  But it seems to work.  A fairly vertiginous ascent/descent; the view pleasant, but not really special enough to move me.

To the airport, where I get stuck into "The Bone People" – written on a large, languid scale, it bilds to its crisis quite well.  Two planes – how many will I take this hol? - then to Auckland.  I do the right things for the wrong reasons – or vice versa – a $50 hotel, so I take a taxi $30; to the Baalbek restaurant for a Lebanese meal – guess why.  But at least good pop Lebanese music swirls around me.  The restaurant is fairly empty – the Lebanese family owners outnumber the guests at times; my sort of restaurant.  Perhaps the music, the name, the food, puts me in touch with the civilisation I hanker for.  I love London.

I have been bitten to pieces by sand-flies.  

29.9.89 Auckland

Well, the deed is done: I spent 30 minutes removing my hard-won beard.  Of course, immediately afterwards, I thought: "what a mistake".  The skin looked obscenely smooth, hard – and white. A rather sleepless night – perhaps in anticipation.  In fact, more likely due to the sand-fly bites which tortured me.  I have more sympathy with drug addicts: although I knew that itching would make it worse, the urge was strong I succumbed occasionally.

After breakfast, a walk around Auckland centre.  This does not take long, even though the city is quite spread out.  After checking out – before 10am - to the Memorial Museum.  More Polynesian, Maori stuff – in many ways the most characteristic things in New Zealand.  Once again the sense of excitement, the exploration.  The story of man, rocks, initiating history.  Now in the Auckland Art Gallery care, about to battle with Picasso et al.  Actually first went walkies again, then to Gopal's – a veggie restaurant run by Hare Krishnas.  Read some of their propaganda: very woolly.  Walking around I was struck by how many Polynesians/Maoris there are, mostly just sitting around as the disaffected do in all big cities.  Also a few derelicts.  Big city indeed.  Except that there seem to be few shops…

After the propaganda – at least the food tasted of something – to the Picasso.  Some I'd seen before, some not.  Etchings and woodcuts too.  But what abides is a totally superhuman energy.  Beethoven may have that unplumbable depth, unsayable, Shakespeare the richness of worlds – both of which it seems to me Picasso lacks – but he pips them for sheer polymorphous creativity and energy.  And he had a more attractive second wife – Jacqueline was stunning.  Then round the town – again.  Still nothing.  To the quayside, trying to get a view of the coat-hanger bridge with its "Nippon clip-ons", (which I rather like): little dice.  To a brasserie/bar in the old port building, where I sit now, surrounded by the buzz of people who have nothing better to do at 3.30 in the afternoon, watching the fairly unbusy waters.  The skies light grey now, humidity down and generally quite bearable.

I have decided to pretend I still have a beard.

Just as space and spatial extent are only defined by objects within them, so a country, as opposed to a geography, is only defined by the historical objects within it.  This is why I find it hard – nay, impossible – to relate to much of New Zealand: nothing has happened here, or if it has, nobody remembers.  I go back to the well-worn analogy between people and places: visiting countries, towns, rich with history is like meeting someone with a rich and varied experience, someone who has lived life to the full.  New Zealand is an adolescent, gawky and energetic, but bland and ultimately rather dull.  Give it another century, though…  It is very noticeable that men's hair is quite long here; equally, miniskirts are much in evidence: perhaps the 1960s have finally reached these shores…

30.9.89 Suva

Well, unbelievably again, here I am, somewhere else: Tavua, on the north coast of Fiji.  The flight was good – I slept for most of it, and woke to see twinkling sporadic lights below, like refelcted stars – or those glow-worms again.  Customs took ages, and I didn't reach my hotel until 3.15am, despite it being conveniently close. It turns out to be rather upmarket – and cheaper than I thought because the pound is stronger against the Fijian dollar – almost £1= $F2.  My room is quite palatial.  In the morning I am greeted by the thunderous sound of the nearby metal gods yawning.

After breakfast – expensive but filling, a tiny gecko on my chair – to the airport to hire a jeep.  I get a Suzuki Samurai for three days.  I've decided to go round to Suva along the King's (north) Road, stay there one night, and then return by the Queen's (south) Road; which should be easier and more picturesque.  The Suzuki is a new, gleaming white beast with levers all over the place; but it feels sturdy.  No aircon.

After reserving a room back at the Fiji Gateway hotel for Sunday, out on the road.  Not too much traffic – and this is the busiest stretch.  Before picking up the car, I was halted by a very long train hauling sugar cane; the train is an omnipresent companion, or at least its narrow-gauge tracks which cross the road continually – without warning lights.  But the main hazard is slow, lumbering trucks packed with sugar cane.  Road quite good along here, though it is supposed to get worse.

The scenery is quite dramatic: Pacific Ocean to my left, fringed by palm trees and narrow, silver strands, and the highlands to my right, craggy but lushly forested.  I pass through small villages – some with sleeping policemen – mostly tin huts.  In the bigger towns the shops are concrete – à la Bali – and all the signs are in English.  Many names are Indian; man of those that I pass on the road are dark southern Indians, as well as the frizzy-haired Polynesians.  Lautoka quite busy – with various banners promoting "First Police Remembrance Day".  Other signs warning of the "coffin nails" – fags.  All road signs in English.  Islands, misty, out to sea.  Clouds everywhere but the sun always burning them away.  An odd sight: Jehovah's Witness Centre.  A huge trench in the road: I didn't see it, but the Suzuki seems to cope.  Note: both here and New Zealand, Japanese cars are 95% of those on the road.  What a chance the Brits blew.

Bliss.  I am sitting in Suva, by the swimming pool of the Suva Travelodge.  In front of me, the sun is bleeding the sky a gorgeous salmon-pink, over a grey-pink cloud bank against which is silhouetted the mountains – more which anon.  It is a balmy evening; I can see two luxury liners moored at Suva, one lit up like a Christmas tree on Fifth Avenue.  I am surrounded by coconut trees and other exotica.  This glorious evening is quintuply welcome after the afternoon I've just had.  An odyssey, the perfect antidote to the anodyne New Zealand, with its perfect roads.

After lunch in Tavua, at the delightfully quiet but characterful Hotel Tavua (though unfortunately the goat curry was off the menu) [double parenthesis – tea and biscuits have arrived, shades of The Imperial in New Delhi…].  Anyway, after Tavua, I followed the coast to Rakiraki.  The sun was obscured more now, but that made the heat more pleasant.  The coast was low mostly, volcanic black sand.  The roads up to this point had been pretty good.  On to Viti Levu Bay [this tea is good – hello Bali, too] [lights have gone on...casting eerie lights and shadows].  Which was truly beautiful: white sand, mountains behind, islands to sea, bays peeking away to the distance. 

The drums have started now, Kodo-like. There are brazier-like lights along the sea front, flames shattering in the evening breeze, smoke weaves off almost imperceptibly. Great St. Mary's chimes – in Auckland, and even here, 6.45pm...  The cicadas have started up like a thousand tiny buzzsaws perfectly synchronised.  It has truck 7.  It is 6am in London; half a world away.  Am I really here?  A frog is hopping across the lawn: how on earth did it get here?  Another move – will this story never get told? - to Tikos – the floating restaurant.  It is rocking delightfully, there is a beautiful breeze and I am having raw fish, then pakapaka.  This is nice, if a curious sensation.

To return: I thought that I must have mistaken a turning, the road had gone on so long.  I was resigned to taking an even longer route when I met up with the map.  Then the fun really began.  The road by now was gravel or potholes or dirt track.  Had I not been driving the Suzuki I would have been having kittens.  I engaged 4WD – it felt like warp factor 7 – and drove.  After a while it became quite pleasant having my kidneys destroyed – reasonably secure in the knowledge that the beast could take it – there's that touching trust in technology again.

I passed through innumerable small villages, most without a name.  The people certainly are friendly: a simple wave elicits broad smiles and waves back.  I even gave a lift to three 16-year-old girls who had walked about three miles to get the Fiji Times ("the first newspaper published in the world", quite well written too).  As with most Fijians, they were cheerful and bouncy.  Talking with them brought home the yawning chasm between our worlds.  The villages are simple: some have schools – all in English; but there are few flowers anywhere, unlike Bali, say.  But then I have to the remember the fact that plants and animals exist here naturally is a miracle – imagine the distances.   Bridges have become planks with more planks laid crosswise parallel to the road. [Quite a lot of Brits in this restaurant – plus the ubiquitous Japs…]  I began to get a feel for distances and size: the first Polynesians and old James Cook must have been pretty pleased when they discovered Fiji: it is a surprisingly large lump of rock. Its volcanic origins lend a particular charm to the silhouettes: jagged fingers of rock, chimneys – quite unlike the tame glacial ones of Europe.  This is a young land.

Towards the north-east corner of the island, surprisingly barren; lusher inland.  This road goes on and on, as I can only make about 50 km/hour.  Even this is too fast: at one bridge I spot lorries the other side; I slam brakes on – too hard, and execute a rather worrying 90 degree skid; and reprimanded by one of the drivers… Later, nearer here, I encounter major road works as the government beings to metal and widen.  But road works here does not mean a bit of contraflow: huge trucks and JCBs pirouette; I have to avoid them while driving over barely tamped earth.  Roads split and diverge, old and new.  Red gashes of raw hillside; large drops all over the place.  Then, nearer here, a convoy of us on a dusty track: I am blinded and choked for half an hour – there is nothing I can do.  Finally metalled road, then I hit Suva's rush hour.

I listen to the radio occasionally.  Brit accents, announcements about Diwali competitions, news flashes relating to ferries, endless Indian film songs, tablas booming away under swooping saccharine strings.  [Are there people talking about apricots – and slagging them off…?] This is definitely pleasant, the breeze, the rocking, the smells, the lapping of the water.  [Talking of micros, which I'm not, in a micro store in Victoria Parade, Commodores – even Commodore 64s – rule the roost.]  At night, the heavens descent: the sky seems to crowd down like bunched velvet.  The paucity of lights helps: just the odd pool, otherwise soft blackness.  [Another parenthesis – almost as bad as James Joyce or summit – my beard seems to be growing very slowly – shock, perhaps.]

As I said, today's epic struggle was a wonderful contrast to New Zealand: many times thought I was completely lost – the sun, never as trustworthy below the equator as above, I find (relatively speaking) was all over the shop; there were no signs; the jeep really taking a beating; I was dusty, my throat dry and sore.  It is precisely this experience which I will remember (I hope) rather than the easy perfection of some of my travels in New Zealand.  I also felt in touch with the island.  Travelling around over half of it – the least touristy part, too, I met the real Fiji repeatedly.

1.10.89 Nadi

It has rained overnight.  In the morning, the earth has a fresh, new smell, like Bali.  It is pleasantly warm.  Plenty of fruits for breakfast, coconut juice and coconut muesli.  The Fijian/Polynesian language somehow seems of a piece with its environment: consonants divided by vowels, islands by sea, soft syllables, repetitious word formation just as volcanoes formed the isles.  Well, sort of.  From this trip in particular, I realise that for me part of the point of them is the challenge of making everything happen: I set myself tasks, goals, and have to achieve them  It is partly for this reason that I prefer to travel alone (sometimes…): things only happen if I make them – everything is continent on and a reflection of that.  It is a pure manifestation of will.  NB: all the greatest travellers have gone alone – is the only way to see things, rather than turn inward, to your group.  I must write "On Tourism".

Interesting piece in yesterday's "Fiji Times" (probably taken from a Brit newspaper – there are many lifted pieces): it was about animals' and humans' lifetimes – the old business about heart-rates, number of years lived, etc.  But on good point the journo made was about each day: when you are one year old, each day is 1/365th of your life; when you are 30, it is only 1/10,000th of your life – hence it seems to go more quickly…. (for some, anyway).  The point is hols are similar: they put back the density of event into your life.  Because your stay anywhere is so limited, each day becomes 1/10th or so of your time there – and so, more important.  

Outside the Cathedral of the Sacred Heart.  Strange seeing this pastiche Romanesque.  The choir is singing "Amazing Grace" within.  A symbol, perhaps, of the intrusions of all these bloody missionaries on these islanders' lives.  Suva, on a Sunday morning, is dead, not surprisingly.  Again, the Indian names – and a Swedish one, Hedstrom.  It is a sultry day, although the sun is in.  The Regal Cinema, a glorious folly, now painted a shocking Suffolk pink.  I am in the Crow's Nest restaurant.  It is clouded over but pleasant: the restaurant is atmospheric, nearly empty.  The restaurant is full of sailing memorabilia: pix of ships, lanterns, creels, even charts on the ceiling.  To my left, the ocean, wet beach then dark blue sea.  Fans twirl, the breeze passes in and out of the room; there is a peaceable clatter from the kitchen.  Ordered: cream of fish, and chicken in lolo (coconut milk).  Flowers on the table (bougainvillea?).  

Nothing much to report on here: a flat coastal plain, lush vegetation, then hills, with tempting water below.  Went down to Man Friday resort – another rough track, nothing much else to see.  Gave a lift to a mother and her four kids.  Otherwise just moving on.  A wasp like some kind of optica plane is buzzing me.  A nice place.  On to Sigatoka, to gawp at the Nadroga Jame-Mosque.  It's amazing the number of religions here – various Christians, Hindu, Islam, Hare Krishna, et al.  The mosque looks like Brighton Pavilion, or a tea-room there…

After overheating, then taking the wrong turn – rougher and rougher – I finally make it to Natadola Beach where I now sit.  This is a beautiful beach.  Alas, no sun.  But the waves are something else.  Mostly flat until within about 20 feet of the shore, then the water rises up with an incredible unanimity – falls with a huge slapping smack of extraordinary force and sharpness.  Very daunting.  Around there are a few coconut trees and other low trees.  A nice white beach (the sea is getting rather too close – I can see myself getting soaked if I'm not careful).  For about 15 minutes I was talking with a local – stocky chap, who was moaning about how he was the local "security" – but didn't get paid etc.  And how the Japs want to build a hotel here, how they're buying everything up, how they started the war…

Back at the Castaway Hotel – which is looking different somehow – perhaps the overcast skies have confused me.  A nominally better room facing the hills, not the planes – but I miss the great grey things.  I think one of my few indulgences when abroad like this is sugar in my tea; alas, they have no sweet bickies…  Two weeks ago, I was sitting in the Sidewalk Café in Venice...unbelievable.  Listening to the radio today, religious programmes everywhere – horrible kiddie propaganda – yuk.  [Did I mention: in Suva, one shrewd (Indian) merchant was advertising a special sale on the basis of Fiji Day, the Prophet's Birthday, and Diwali…]  A surprisingly tiring day again, but good fun.  The old 4x4 is certainly proving its worth.

I am sitting beside the pool, water plashing in from an incongruous heap of rocks beside it.  One Fijian around – otherwise, nada.  Old rock playing tinnily on the speakers. I am the heir to it all, and yet I have this too – who could ask for more?  I feel that someone is switching off the sky with a thyristor, or that an increasingly opaque curtain is being drawn across it.  A planet is out. I am now alone with the mad rock guitarist – very 70s.  It occurred to me that the Indians are about the only ones left with an alternative pop music to the all-pervasive Western variety.  [I realise now what the Crow's Nest restaurant reminded me of: a certain café perched on the edge of a cliff opposite the Calf of Man...] 

There is another frog, hopping across the pool's surroundings: is it a plague or an omen?  It is so easy to hear oblivion, ecstasy in the electric guitar's manic whine.  There is one Moody in Fiji phone book: R. I. R. Moody, Vatuvia Road, Lami, near Suva.  I passed through it today: perhaps I should have called in… [The standard Fijian woman looks like Joan Armatrading.]  There does not seem to be any abject poverty in Fiji: as in Bali, the climate ensures that subsistence living is quite possible with minimal means.  [Parenthetically, I only saw homeless and down and outs in New Zealand in Auckland, its biggest and most cosmopolitan of cities.]  And people do seem at peace, smiling and greeting readily.  No, I do have another indulgence abroad: I drink Coke.  But often this is out of necessity. Makes me think of the Imperial's swimming pool…

I am in the Blue Orchid dining room at the hotel: as I drove through Nadi, I discovered it was a long way out. I really am poised between past and future: in 50 years' time, Fiji will be like everywhere: everywhere will be like everywhere.  I am privileged to see Natadola before the hotels come, the tiny villages up in the hills with thatched roofs and plaited walls, the simplicity of the people.  It is really frustrating eating these dishes served in half coconuts: I cannot eat the fruit.  Ludicrously, the background music to Air New Zealand's privatisation ads on TV haunts me: it is a kind of dumpy waltz for brass band and strings – it sounds very Michael Nyman.  Which is doubtless why it haunts – I can't wait for "The Cook, The Thief, His Wife and Her Lover" – let's hope there's a Greenaway retrospective around then.  And what's next?  I remember hearing the first rumours about "Drowning by Numbers" – and indeed reading the newspaper report about "Belly of an Architect" and "Zed and Two Noughts".  What a man, what a culture.

So much pop music represents a striving for the transcendental and the numinous.  Indeed, probably unbeknownst to them, this is the nearest many people will ever get to that "beyond".  Hence acid house's attraction, and all dance music's: it offers a trance-like state, a letting go, a social nirvana, an abdication of rationality. [I had cassava for lunch – tapioca? Made me think of cassowary – "Walk through H", Greenaway – again…] Apparently the quicksilver forms running across the road are mongooses (mongeese?) - old Rikki-Tikki-Tavi – now, there's a memory.  It is surprising how often a potentially decent/good meal is spoilt by an indifferent/bad sweet.  As it was tonight, and even old Kate Mantilini's.  Sadly, I fear that life may often be thus: we live too long, to become shadows.  Even someone like Lee Miller – a cultural heroine of mine – who seemed to have and do everything, ended her life in bitterness.  

2.10.89 Nadi

Up early enough to see a glorious sunrise.  Sun is streaming down now, but the forecast is not good.  I had failed to grasp the fact that I have circumnavigated the island, all of it, exactly.  It is a surprisingly large island, and so far from everywhere.  The same music as last night – hard rock – is playing: each hotel seems to have its one, favourite tape which it plays endlessly.

I got to Natadola beach early – around 9am.  It was deserted.  The sun was breaking through high clouds intermittently.  It is now scorching, but there is a lovely – deceptive – breeze, and the sea is perfect – and perfectly frightening in its power.  I have just been for a 15 minute horse ride, thus fulfilling one of my lifelong ambitions: to ride a horse bareback along the margin of a golden beach, with coconut trees swaying in the breeze, and the sun glinting on the water.  Hard work though – the mare – one "Jimmy"… (ha!) was a bit small for me.  But we galloped – and worryingly, it was without aids.  But exhilarating.  I am now sore.

Moody's First Law of Tourism

The amount of experience each day holds is in inverse proportion to the length of the holiday.

That is, if you spend only four days in Fiji, for example, you pack a lot in; stay for four months, and you pack more in, but not thirty times more.  The ideal would be to glimpse a country for an infinitely intense moment.

Moody's Second Law of Tourism

The cost of something is in proportion to the distance, time, effort expended to get to that place.

For example, at home, we can take or leave things; in France we probably put up with a slight premium; in the fjords of New Zealand we pay practically any price, since we may never return.  

Moody's Third Law of Tourism

The real distance of a newly-visited place is measured not in miles, or even hours, but in the amount of discomfort endured to get there.

Travel = travail, that is, suffering undergone.  Originally, all travel was travail: for example to visit India or the Nile was a horrendous undertaking.  Recently, it has become too easy: people have no sense of travelling.  Zero discomfort means you are still in your living room, watching a "feelie"/simstim travelogue.  Which is why more and more people want more difficult holidays.

Well, I'm glad I got that out of the way: the rest of the book should be easy.

I am back in the Crow's Nest for tea and pancake.  Luckily the sun went in so I was able to leave.  Even so, I am nicely frazzled.  The sea was just right: a warm bath but refreshing – but the waves were wicked, as were the various undertows.  First, I should note that about 11.30am, the crowds arrived.  Until then, I shared the beach with just three others, and one snorkeller.  And a big beach too.  I decided to head back to Sigatoka to drive up the valley along the river.  The latter is amazingly broad: it almost seems wrong that an island should have such a large twisting inland waterway.  On either side, lots of fruit and veggies growing.

More fun: there was a sign saying "detour", which of course I ignored.  It led me to more road works – that is, road building, with me swooping in and out of bulldozers, huge dumpster trucks etc al.  None of the workmen seemed at all worried by this, and waved back happily.  [Parenthetically, this waving and smiling really is infectious.]  The road was rough, and barely formed, but nothing I wasn't by now use to.  After getting bored following the road, I turned back but faithfully took the detour.  As often is the case, the cure proved worse than the illness: it was a road whose design was based on corrugated iron, with a few huge potholes thrown in to keep you awake.  But the trusty Suzuki made it.  Though I must say I can be less impressed with my own achievements after seeing some of the family saloons people took to the beach.

On the way back, my first Fiji rain – quite heavy.  Also, in the distance, I see grey shimmering beneath the clouds where rain falls.  The earth gives off smells that suggest that it is good enough to eat.  Unusually for me, I have overdone the sun.  Amusingly, where some of the highly efficacious Factor 9 suntan oil has touched me, I have white islands in a sea of red.  Foolish, foolish. I sit now in the outside restaurant; a trio of Fijians singing and playing guitar – some interesting falsetto chords.

3.10.89 Nadi

A curious day, but not unpleasant.  Painful, yes: I am really badly burnt, which is annoying; I am also sore from the horsey activities.  Wake, cursing, to brilliant sunshine.  But – wonders – I stayed out of it all day.  Perhaps I'm getting wise in my old age.  Instead, I sat in the shade round the pool or in my aircon room, reading Typee.  Disappointing: very old-fashioned, rather disjointed, though interesting points of contact with the future "Moby Dick".  Does capture quite well the sense of life unchanging on these islands – something which would drive me nuts.  Occasionally the prolonged barp of the sugarcane diesels, or else the low thunder of a plane on take-off.  Took Samurai back this morning: 780 kilometres in three days.  Served me well.  It's appalling: there are people here (as there need to be – this hotel has about 100 rooms).  Mercifully the clouds descended in the afternoon, so I felt less bad about missing it.  A late flight this evening: 1.40am.  Now I sit in the outside restaurant, , guitars strumming away, a delicious warmth in the evening air – one of my favourite facets of tropical locations.

It is 12.45am; I am very tired.  I am sitting in the café at the airport.  My plane has just come in – a huge, lumbering screaming 747 – the café is open to the night, and the sound was deafening.  I had no hesitation in sticking my fingers in my ears.  How I love the technology of this $100 million big bird: it epitomises late 20th-century life – that and computers.  I have read half of "The Mind's I": good, though nothing startlingly new yet.  Good for mental limbering up.  Brings back memories of San Jose, and even my skiing trip.  Earlier in the day, sitting beside the pool, I heard a big jet – 747? - take off; moreover, the wonderful waft of burnt kerosene spread over us – the incense of travel.

3.10.89 (sic) Honolulu

A very curious date – so that's what happened to Tuesday: it's rather pleasing that it should be Tuesday I lose, and Tuesday I gain.  So, I am in Honolulu, sitting in the café of the Academy of Arts – interesting, good value meal with a real character of a waiter – one Bill.  It is bucketing down outside – so much for my planned sunbathing.  Just as well, perhaps: I am now itching furiously, so this is my discomfort I was yearning for…

Good flight – again, I slept like a bent log.  Into a wet and very muggy Honolulu.  The drive from the airport looked like Los Angeles or San Francisco.  The Sheraton Waikiki looks impressive – more later, although my room has a lousy view.  Honolulu, in all its 24-hour glory, seems to be a living example of one of my laws…  So far Honolulu looks like a lush US city – few Hawaiians visible, mostly large Yanks.  Some very attractive oriental women at the airport – from an airline, perhaps.  Indeed, orientals seem common: I had one as my taxi driver – spoke barely a word, and seemed to understand as little.

One of the nicest things about visiting a new museum is that it offers a tabula rasa on which I can scribe my guesses.  I walk into the first room: I see (I think) Redon, Tanguy, de Chirico, Braque, Delaunay (R), Gris, Leger – almost right: Braque is actually a Picasso, the Gris is a Braque.  There is a very simple Tahitian scene by Gaugin; I now feel in a totally different way towards his work... Enjoyable wandering around the Academy.  Nothing stunning, but pleasant to be indoors on a day of tropical torrential downpour.  Well, one stunning work: I heard it as I came into the modern gallery.  It is called Sounding Sculpture, and by Harry Bertoia (US) 1915-1978.  It consists of 25 five-feet high metal rods, equally spaced in a square, with another eleven seven-foot six-inch rods on two sides, ending in heavier cylinders.  The tensile strength is such that the natural harmonics are low.  You are invited to touch.  Doing so produces a clangour of bells – like San Gimignano.  You hear complex snatches of rhythm; gradually it dies away, with just the occasional chance note singing out.  Totally magic.

It is a very curious sensation, but I appear to be trapped in the Honolulu Academy of Art.  I have looked at everything I can/want to, but the rain falls without abatement; buckets.  I cannot easily leave, and even if I could, where would I go?  So I am back in Room 1, with my friends and roots, and the smell of dank Hawaiian air in my nostrils.  

In my beginning is my end: just as my first meal in Los Angeles was Italian, so my last in Honolulu is; I am being lazy and eating in the hotel.  Largely because of the rain, which turns out to be a freak: three inches in one hour on this island; two inches elsewhere.  I called a taxi twice, none came.  Fed up, I did that un-American thing and walked.  Wet feet, but little else.  In the end, probably sensible: I get to find on the news that traffic jams were clogging everywhere.  

I find that there are three crucial elements to getting to know a place: its newspaper, its TV – or radio if this isn't available – and its telephone book.  [Parenthetically, as I came through immigration this morning, I noticed that one D. Moody is wanted: shame on him/her for besmirching the name…]  So this evening I have been settling down to the local news, Star Trek etc.

I am disappointed in this hotel.  It is not grand, just large – no real facilities, no view from the top.  My room is exceedingly ill-placed – the corridors are so long.  Waikiki is essentially an upmarket Blackpool – I'm not missing anything here; and Honolulu itself looks pretty empty.  But the experience of being here briefly was worth it, to experience the rain, the rain, the rain… [Parenthetically again, this here scribbling at least prevents me from twiddling my thumbs in restaurants – prime danger for solo dining: thanks, fog – or something.]

It is strange how everything has fitted together: Los Angeles to Honolulu, the three Pacific cultures, Tuesdays lost and found.  I have learnt much about travelling: whereas other hols have taught me about the places, here it has been more general.  At first I feared this trip would be something of a flop – without bit or focus; happily that isn't so, it is all coming together nicely.

4.10.89 Honolulu

So we make it to the 4th.  A slight restless night – I never trust wake-up calls that you program into the phone, so I tend to wake of my own accord.  Also my king-size bed – about six foot six inches square – is disconcerting.  No paper; pah – bloody Sheraton.  Down to the beachside café.  A very pleasant way to spend my last morning in Honolulu, watching the indistinct masses of the clouds hang greyly, with the pounding of the surf below, coconut trees swaying in the stiff breeze.  A nice morning, in fact, no rain yet .  Huge puce clouds as I was driven to the airport – surprising amount of traffic outward bound.

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Thursday, 9 April 2020

2019 Moldova

15.2.2019 Chișinău

Sitting in the Molka Club coffee house.  Flew in a couple of hours ago – the only non-Moldovan on the plane, I'd guess.  Wizzair, very cheap.  In City Park Hotel – very central, modern, clean.  Unlike the city, which is very run-down – reminds me of Priştina, but bigger.  Driving in from the airport with my taxi – nice Mercedes, driven by a bloke whose mother was Russian, father Ukrainian ("I never saw him"), who spoke Russian mainly, Romanian only roughly – I saw huge chimneys in the distance, belching out smoke.  Cloudy and cold (4ºC) when we landed, but good walking weather.  Only here until Sunday – even taxi driver admitted it was enough.  Greyness suits the city.  My coffee – à la Moldova – has arrived, with some kind of liqueur – cherry?  Also have cake – looks crunchy.  Everyone here is talking Russian. Wifi good, though, as is the hotel's – which is a mercy, since I don't have mobile data here…

Now in La Placinte, near hotel.  Menu looks good, reviews good, and nice atmosphere.  Went for a walk in dusk along main street, Stefan cel Mare si Sfant Boulevard - a kind of Chișinău Avenue des Champs-Élysées.  Lots of the main buildings nicely illuminated, adding a grace otherwise missing when it's light.  Quite cold now – glad of my thick coat, would like a hat.

On the plane, reading Pushkin's biography.  I've already read it, but because I'm reading The Captain's Daughter it is all much more vivid and meaningful.  And of course his Caucasian experiences now speak directly to me – the fact that I've driven along the road he took – and described in his Voyage to Erzurum – is just an amazing thought.  And it's one reason I am here: it was in Chișinău that he began Eugene Onegin.  What remains of his house is open, and I hope to visit.  Food good.  I'm amazed at how much Russian is spoken here – very much a second language.  Good wifi here too, which is handy.  Tried pear grappa – pretty much as you'd expect.

16.2.2019 Chișinău

In the Propaganda restaurant for lunch.  Nice ambience.  Pretty good breakfast in the beer place next to the hotel.  Then ordered a taxi to go to Orheiul Vechi – 60 euros to go, wait, come back.  Seems fair.  My driver Dmitri – Russian speaking, son of two immigrants from Odessa.  Cheerful young chap.  As in Armenia, we first have to stop to fill up with gas – which meant getting out of the car.  This time, though, good café in the garage, so had espresso.  Pretty decent.

On the road.  Very moderate driving – cameras everywhere, so not much speeding.  That's good, because roads pretty bad.  Countryside flat, drab, not much green.  Rather depressing.  Passed through old village near Orheiul.  Striking how many houses are painted in Uyghur blue.  Dmitry didn't know why.  Saw horse and cart, but surprised not more.

To the church.  Dmitry drove right up to it – rather dodgy road (he started to take me down one he said had a good view that turned into mud and sludge.  Not easy to back out of…)  Church newly repaired and gleaming.  Along the narrow ridge to the entrance to the caves.  Nearby, a bunch of nutters were abseiling down the cliff to the excavated cells.  Not very safe.  Down a dark, sloping passage – reminded me of the Valley of the Kings – to the main chapel.  Rather beautiful.  Looked at the nearby cells – tiny.  A hibernating snake in one corner.

Back to Chișinău.  A man lying beside the road, drunk.  Dmitry offered to take me to Pushkin's house, as I had mentioned it to him. I had intended going on foot today or tomorrow, but accepted.  Through the backstreets, the old Chișinău according to Dmitry, to the house.  Only one other visitor.  Guide ladies all speaking Russian.  The museum part (not the house) has many letters of Pushkin – and drafts of his poems.  Both full of his drawings.  But most striking – the crossings-out – practically every line.  Pushkin worked on his poetry.  To his house – two rooms: living + bedroom, kitchen.  To think of the things that began here…

Food pretty good here, actually, good mushroom soup, chicken tasty.  To the National Museum of Art.  Nicely modernised, all pure whites inside. Not much to see...various Moldovan artists, but nothing of note.  Quite popular, which is good.  Then along to Stephen the Great park.  Nice atmosphere, even now in February.  Along to see the Pushkin bust, then to the Stephen the Great monument – reminds me of Tirana.  In front of Government House, dozens of new blue buses neatly aligned.  Weird.  Then for a stroll along the main Stefan cel Mare si Sfant Boulevard, and back to the hotel to read more of the Pushkin bio.  Afterwards, out to Placinte – excellent food and very close.  Opposite here, along the edge of the cathedral, dozens of florists, with amazing explosions of colour for sale…

Sadly, as if often the case, food not so good tonight: fish soup had bones, beef stroganoff a bit fatty...ah well.  Had the beignets again..plus 7-year-old Divin Călăraşi – which I bought along with two bottles of red wine to take back.  Pretty good stuff…

17.2.2019 Chișinău

Glorious sunny day – perfect for walking.  Which I did, all the way to the railway station.  Along the main boulevard.  Quite quiet.  At the end, past all the stalls selling knick-knacks, the Soviet buildings dominate.  Huge, ugly blocks, stained concrete, graceless.  Very like Albania and Priştina.  Using the underpass, the same little kiosks found in Georgia and Armenia (passed two Georgian restaurants, too).  Down to the station, surprisingly ornate – same with other buildings – for example the government ones.  Little architectural curlicues, hints of Egyptian motifs (sic).  Inside the station, very quiet.  Café closed.  Departure and Arrivals boards show Moscow, St. Petersburg, Bucharest.  That pull of exotic lands.  Platforms long, bare.  

Then back along the boulevard, to my room, and then to Placinte.  Despite last night, still good value.  This afternoon will be full of two museums, then taxi to the airport.  To the National Museum of history.  Amazing exhibit on Cucuteni civilisation – obsessed with ceramics – who then disappeared for no known reason.  Flourished 5,000 years ago. Poduri village.  Ended 3,600 years ago.  Then gap of 1,500 years. 300,000 to 400,000 population the video here says… Frumusica site; Prut river.  Tried to find another art gallery – in vain.  Later I discovered it was where I thought it was – on the main boulevard, in the rather over the top Villa – but closed.  So, to finish my rather fine if short trip to Chișinău, I just sat behind the statue of Stephen the Great, in his park, watching the citizens enjoying this lovely Sunday in Moldova.

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Tuesday, 7 April 2020

1993 Morocco

25.5.93 Essaouira

Eccomi sur la plage – in the restaurant of the same name – on a sunny but very windy day.  Fish awaits us – hopefully without the consequences of Mexico…  Huge portions: soupe de poissons, sardines, sole (too young – depletion of stocks?).  The atmosphere good here – great view onto the beach – rather like sunrise.  Our hotel – "des Îles" – not outrageously expensive, great position, comfortable.

Yesterday: delayed flight (traffic: we came over France and Spain, then high over an endless desert covered by broken cloud).  So many things to worry about at the airport – the car, insurance, the hotels (few on the plane – about 30, fewer off at Marrakesh – about 10).   But one thing not a problem: driven in our slightly dented Renault 4 to hotel by main man – only ten minutes away, chosen for that reason – to sleep in a large hard bed.

Up at 6am – large breakfast, then out to car hire place to try to fix windscreen cleaner – no luck, and anyway I hope not needed.  Then early on to road to Essaouira – not as much traffic as I expected – nothing like Cairo, say.  Good road, driving not too insane, reasonable bilingual signposting.  And everywhere, people speak French, which makes this place seem far less foreign, far more European.  Until you hit the desert: frightening, endless, red, rolling.  Seeing the strip of lonely asphalt stretch ahead of us for miles was disquieting.  Seeing no other traffic, ditto.  I began to understand why pioneers travelled together, that feeling of safety.  And how I started remembering where a house was, how far it was to the next village.

Now round the pool.  Crazy weather.  Sky almost totally clear, but a fierce wind cools so you cannot judge the heat.  Few at the hotel – fewer than ten – great, strange end of the world atmosphere that I love.  Sprinklers beat the air rhythmically with spray, seagulls wheel overhead, a pneumatic drill thrums petulantly in the road outside.  So far the Moroccans have seemed an enchanting mixture of friendliness combined with self-respect.

While waiting for the plane yesterday I started reading "Tribes with Flags" – good but standard journalistic stuff so far: a catalogue of interesting people he met and what they said.  What travel writing needs now is books that have a structure to them, not these strings of pearls…

A walk through the town, familiar sights and smells.  Small kids in cardigans everywhere, heavily veiled women, just the eyes peeping out, young men lounging provocatively, a challenge.  Pools of dusty water, blue doors and windows everywhere (lucky colour – remember "Chichester Palms"?).

Back along the "high street", all white arcades, piles of fruit, a few consumer goods, series of gates – one filled with herb vendors.  And everywhere the odour of mint.  Passed the Hotel Villa Maroc, which looks good if inaccessible with jamjar.  I sit writing this by the port, facing the large and inexplicable piazza there.  Wind cool, but sun fine as it declines.

26.5.93 Essaouira

To the Chalet de la Plage again last night – the restaurants we saw in Essaouira were not really suitable for stomachs still delicate.  A typically Arab white wine (rather like Greek, Egyptian, Turkish, Lebanese).  Veal cooked in an earthenware pot – very hot (physically) and so surprisingly tender.  Otherwise potage de légumes (buckets), sardines (again) and mint tea (reminds me of the Hammam in Paris).  Beautiful morning now, clouds on the horizon but clear sky above us.  Wind not too strong yet.  Yesterday, on the piazza, there were mothers with their children – but all swathed so similarly – white gown, black veil – that even the kids mistook them.

After breakfast, out along the beach.  All 1.5 miles of it, a great sweeping curve of pure sand.  Fewer than 30 people on the whole area.  From a distance the town is neat behind its pink walls, with the twin towers of the harbour.  Out to sea the island with a strange walled enclosure.  In front of us, to the south, a strange outcrop of rocks that looks fortified, or like the bridge of a ship run aground.  In fact it's a tower, collapsed and worn away – the masonry course are clearly visible, as is some ornamental ribbing and castellations.  Some camels – unaccompanied – have appeared on the beach – on holiday?  Behind, the beach stretches for miles.

After 90 minutes of sun (enough for me) round the pool – us alone – along to Chez Sam.  Past the fresh fish stalls with food grilled while you wait; past the boat building yard – a good seven or eight in various stages – to the ramshackle but shipshape Chez Sam.  Inside, labyrinthine if small, full of gaily painted wood – rose, mostly – with stuffed fish, plants, Arab brasses – moderately busy – 15 odd here.  Reminds me of Connemara, the strange little shack I ate in – lobster then, but not today.  Cheaper the menu fixe (60 vs. 70 Dirham) of the Chalet de la Plage.  Now playing Bach (barocco in Morocco).  Outside the rusty ships bob at anchor – a real port, stinking, messy (the buoys using scraps of orange plastic for flags), lively.  Yesterday on the road here, a sign: Casablanca...surely some mistake?  Casablanca…  Fine meal, good value – better wine than yesterday.  Back to the hotel.

A man wearing a scarlet fez; big seagulls wheeling overhead.  Everywhere the grass – rough, spongey stuff – is being watered.  A stroll round the town – remarkably untouristic – except for the wonderful carved goods – what tables!  Then to Chez Sam for a lightning meal.  Outside, the port, darkness, pools of sodium light, the red and green lights.  Reminds me of...Naxos, somewhere in Skye, Fiji (and in the restaurant boat…).  Boats leaving (to get the sardines?).  

It's true: I find it far easier to speak in French here than in France: no self-consciousness, no Froggies sneering (well, not much).

27.5.93 Marrakesh

Back here, circling it, but never entering, as if saving it… In fact, we went across the top to get to here, a rather touristy place called Hotel Riu Tikida, on the road to Fes.  Set amidst some fine palms, with rather striking Moorish architecture in blue and dark biscuit brown, it is spoilt by being nearly full (the other hotel was full) of tourists, French mostly, who act like, well, tourists, arsing around, destroying one of the few loungers (I spent 15 minutes trying to rustle up chairs and towels for us – we have now found them, and feel better than sitting on the grass with the stupid flies.

Woke up the smorning (sic: I still do it after 30 years...) [good sonnet there] to torrential downpour – no umbrella with us, nothing.  But as with yesterday and the day before, the sun gradually burnt away the clouds, and we drove into a fast-drying landscape.  One that continued to strike me as biblical: the old men in heavy, striped coats, grizzled beards and heavily-lined faces, the donkeys bent under impossible loads, boys sitting the sun, immobile, watching flocks of sheep searching out something edible, the mud-brick houses, low and with few openings.  But a few unusual sights: windmills made of brightly-coloured metal, pumping water; almost negroid Berbers; young women, gypsy-like in their colouring; piles of stones, fields of them; the wonderfully neat dry-stone walling; camels; sheep in the trees; the loneliness of the small desert we crossed; the sight of the High Atlas in the distance (we're crossing that…?)

Essaouira was great: few tourists, a sense of being on the edge.  The closed town with its narrow, arched streets, no cars (I have only really registered this: a kind of dry Venice, an Arabic San Gimignano – but less touristy), the women almost completely obscured.  Last night we looked for a vaguely touristy but ethnic restaurant – and couldn't find one.  Either popular (=Arab) or else Chez Sam, so we chose the latter – and had more restrained food, but the atmosphere was good with the dusk falling and boats leaving.

The clouds so high above us, mere wisps that the sun burns off.  The pool good here, the place more acceptable as the afternoon deepens and with it the shadows.  After waiting until 8 o'clock, to the Moroccan pavilion.  Beautiful inlaid roof, sunken area in the middle, surrounded by divans covered in worked material.  An oud (?) plays plausibly in the background.  Fine harira, couscous a little tasteless, tagine tough-ish, Moroccan sweets ultra-sweet.  Outside to the starry night (crescent moon).  Something moves by the pool – a frog.  There's another on the edge; the first comes to join it – and jumps on it – well, that's life/love/nature for you… Strange glooping noises come from the froggy pair.

28.5.93  Ouarzazate

The wind comes in off the Sahara, and is like air from an oven.  Totally clear blue sky, sun murderous, air thin (1600 metres) and dry on the lips.  The journey was spectacular but long and hard.  Out from Marrakesh along the P31 [now the N9], fast and good road – quiet, today being Friday.  The landscape gradually more verdant, the trees thicker, water evident.  Big rolling hills, Berber folk.  Then the ascent, the road zigzagging up the side of rocky hills, now ruddy.  But strange to see patches of wheat, already golden, plus cherry trees and others.  Already, the houses square and Berberish, with tiny windows.  Fantastic views across the foothills as we follow the course of a river.  Great moulded volcanic rocks for hills.

And everywhere – sometimes within yards – men, boys, offering gorgeous precious stones – amethyst, quartz – for sale.  Often eggs split in two to reveal yolk colours, greens, blues, and blacks.  They almost jump in front of us.  A few coaches and Land Rovers on the road – things becoming more touristic these days.

To Taddart, a pleasant enough village/town (at 1650 metres), where I have a coffee from a typical fly-blown café.  Then real ascent for the last 600 metres to the summit.  I am reminded first of New Zealand – the Southern Alps – and then even more by Kashmir, that long ascent following the river Jhelum – the same villages hanging precariously on to the sides of the valleys, the sudden patches of green cultivation.  Strangely, the moon visible, lying palely on its side – the air so thin here, I suppose.  One hair-raising climb along a ridge – drops either side – and then we're at the pass, which continues for some miles, still surprisingly green.  Along the way we have met horse riders and even cyclists… The descent is gentler – losing only 1100 metres and that mostly at the beginning.  Then quite a fast road but one that soon burns out into the scorching desert.

8 o'clock.  Earlier, the moon was at its zenith, the sun setting low, but still hot with its sticky, thick heat.  The telephone saga.  We wanted to make a call.  The standard apparently en panne here, so we go out to the public phone.  Carte téléphonique – nobody has.  Change? Nobody will give us (there seems to be a kind of reverse imperialism here: many seemed to delight in our problems).  So, we go "into" Ouarzazate (which, on the way in had broad avenues and a totally surreal Berber architecture applied – utterly convincingly – to shops and offices.)  We find the Post Office, and a few helpful people to explain where to go (as luck would also have it, the main telephone exchange was en panne).  We buy the card, and then try – 20, 30 times – to use it.  Eventually we give up.  We stagger back to the car.  Back to the hotel, where the bloody standard is working now, so we can call from there.  Outside the sky has darkened and we await the starts.  But back to the journey.

The last part was just long and frightening again as it seemed we were really driving into the heart of the Sahara.  Maps are such comforters, such liars.  They make journeys seem so plausible, so possible.  But nothing on the map could prepare us for the twisting, climbing, ever-on of the journey, all four and a half hours of it.  It was the same with Essaouira: on the page the town all looked so neat and compact, so graspable; instead, it was a warren, something 3D or Escherian that could not be conveyed by 2D alone.  Perhaps this is the fundamental flaw of my journeying: I always underestimate the distances (and, en passant, are we really going to drive 450 kilometres at the end?).  I conceive of going to, say, Bolivia (as I do now), and if/when I meet the reality find it is far worse than expect – or just far worse.  In fact, in this sense I don't really "enjoy" travelling, I enjoy having travelled – unfortunately the latter requires the former.  And also the strange sense of the present: why now?  What will happen next – and why can't we know?

Oh yes, the hotel: Belere, notable (besides its lackadaisical staff) for its clever use of real Berber mud covering (complete with chaff).  Lovely pool – but I fear the sun's rays are deadly here.  At dusk, a crowd of birds in the trees in the courtyard by the pool – a riot (and swifts were dipping elegantly in yesterday's pool at the same time).  Very noticeably women have no veils, knee-length dresses, rather attractive and quite un-Arabic.  Fascinating this growing centre so far from everything.  Re-entering the hotel you realise the sheer necessity of shade and coolth – just as heat is necessary in Moscow, say.

29.5.93  Ouarzazate

In the Kasbah, attractive designs on main section.  Inside refreshingly cool, with breezes through grilled windows.  View over the lake.  On the whitewashed walls the smuts of old candle flames.  The floor oscillates as others walk on it. A view over more mud-brick dwellings.  Roofs made of reeds laid side by side.  Who knows what these walls saw?  Up to the tiled room, surprisingly cool in the breeze.  Sugary tea for breakfast, ditto for lunch.  Sunbathing in the morning after our visit, and later in the afternoon.  Now the breeze is strong, the sun veiled by incredibly high clouds – wispy.  I don't know why, but I am sure these are the highest clouds I've seen.  Strange the rhythm of these places when meals no longer exists as markers in the day.  Pool surprisingly cold this morning.  Strange too all this water here so near the Sahara, and with such aridity around.  To the café with the terrace – inside is nicely done out in black, white and red tiles, brocades, chairs and divans.

30.5.93 Marrakesh

Aït BenhaddouOff the road to here, stopping this side of the stream.  Fantastic views of the brown forms opposite.  What a view they have.  7.30am and the sun begins to burn.  In the café at the pass.  Cool – cold even.  Little traffic, brilliant, hard sunshine.  Terraces cultivated as in Bali, almost bare mountain tops with added sprinkling of bent trees.  What a landscape – so far from everywhere.  

Back at the Tikida – though to tell the truth, this time we have done better: a room on the first floor, facing outwards, towels then loungers; food served moderately quickly – despite a huge group having their barbecue (or perhaps because?).  So we sit now by the pool, in the shade, a pleasant breeze wafting over us.  We have a whole day's rest tomorrow, to be used partly in Marrakesh – this place we have hovered around but never seen… (though coming in today we saw the tower of the great mosque). [Parenthetically, I am appalled to note that these black books are no longer bound, but simply glued: what are things coming to?]

Thinking of our two days' expedition: although I did not do half the things I had hoped to, I feel that our incomplete visit was far more real than any that could have been made in a coach group – though they may well have been to more places – for all the usual reasons.  Driving back through one-street villages, hot and dusty under the pale sky, I was reminded of Nepal, of Kashmir, of all those place so far away from my world.  I feel again a desire to write about them all and to link them in some way – how I know not.  Here in Marrakesh I also feel all the other currents: French, Arabic etc.  And the sense of sheer insignificance when confronted by the rocks, the sheer faces, the crags (makes me long for the Lake District) – the mountain tops.  Following the path round a hill, precariously clinging to its face; lost in a maze of valleys, clefts, plains.

I must go: the flies are horrendous…

31.5.93 Marrakesh

Jemaa el-FnaSitting in the café Argana, splendid view over the square – snake charmers' shawms raucous in the background.  Arabic radio with French news bulletins.  Paid 50 Dirham to get here – alas, no other taxi at the hotel to bargain with, and I'm too tired to drive yet.  Passed around walls, and garden by Koutoubia, then to Jemaa el-Fna.  Stopped by snake charmer – very nasty-looking snakes, and saw water sellers, old women with greasy tarot cards.  Assaulted by guides, one claims us, and fiercely shoos away any others.  We refuse for ten minutes, but he follows us, and eventually I agree on 5 Dirham – 40p – for "protection" really.  

Then into the souk.  Past the cassette stalls, music blaring.  The rest very similar to Egyptian bazaar/Istanbul, but far fewer tourists.  Often we were the only ones, which felt a little worrying at times.  For some of the alleys were narrow and dark [a plane comes to land close to the city] with donkeys (sores and blood on their mistreated backs), horses, motorcycles, bikes.  The stalls: carvings, pottery, odd bits of meat (great slobbering tongues), strange dead animals (aphrodisiacs), spices (glorious smells), piles of fruits, vegetables, clothing, carpets (huge palaces of them).  A thought: how many million items are there here?  

Back to Tikida. After passable buffet lunch (and a change of room) to the pool (weird plastic loungers).  I finish off "Tribes with Flags" – realising that all this applies totally to Yugoslavia.  Then back to Jemaa el-Fna and the Argana restaurant for a view of the seething square – packed with Moroccans – grouped in circles in a way that seems innately human.  One circle: we see musicians with rebab, drums…  In the distance, the long line of Atlas mountains obscured by haze.  Swifts in the air.  To the Marrakesh Restaurant – surprisingly empty, but lovely view of the Place, the illuminated  Koutoubia and the apricot sunset.  Lamps lit down in the market – bustling as ever.  The cries that rise to use like an uprising: not a general hubbub, but more forceful.  Our waiter tells us that the crowd is so large below because this is the Feast of the Moutons.

A nice ritual – washing hands with a ewer and basin (first time I've used that word…) before eating.  The pastilla de poulet sweet and excellent. Outside the lights like candles on a birthday cake.  Tajine: lamb with figs – very figgy – and good.  People moving in the Place outside, obscuring and then uncovering the lights in a wonderfully random fashion… The proprietor (?) or at least head man, who looks like Tom Stoppard, has a plaster across his nose.  As we entered, he wore Western clothes and looked like a bouncer.  Dressed à la Maroc, in a tasteful purple kit, he looks much more cuddly.  

The muezzin (9pm) – only the second we've heard here.  Very loud (given the transparent [sonically] roof we have here).  Seems real.

1.6.93 Rabat

The Chellah Rabat Hotel – nothing special.  Fun finding it in  central Rabat, though fortunately today being a holiday there was little traffic.  Four hours or so it took us.  The journey pretty good.  Roads excellent – which means 100 km/hour was easy and safe-ish (though I worry about the tyres).  To the Great Tower – fine piece of masonry.  Strange breeze blowing off the sea.  Very peaceful here – despite arriving at the same time as a tour group.  A forest of dumpy pillars behind us (hello, Chichen Itza…).  Late afternoon sun and colours.  To the glistening white Mausoleum of Mohammed V – over the top, but rather nice.  Inside, fascinating to see rich ornament that is either script or geometry: words/maths.  Below, the marble is polished like water…  A walk down to the station – smart and clean.  City is generally tidy and efficient – though a little dull for a capital.

2.6.93 Rabat

Down at breakfast.  The vestigial smells remind me of real breakfast smells of hotels in the Lake District, in Christchurch (the New Zealand one) – for these, perhaps, you need cold air outside, and hot steamy kitchens.  To the Chellah.  Surprisingly large, very peaceful inside.  Glorious purple-foliaged trees – and hundreds of cranes and storks – nests high in trees and in the ruins.  Great view.  Constant squealing (as in Nyman's "M"…).  

To the museum, the usual collection of fragmentary inscriptions (DIV AUG) and coins and bones, plus the bronzes (in a separate room). Glaring black, verdigris.  The "famous" dog. A firm Cato Uticensis: severe, ears sticking out, Roman nose, incredible tristesse in the downward tilt of the head – a slight curl of the lip…

Meknes – to the Bab El Mansour, which I recognise, having passed it on the drive here – led by two lads on a motorbike.  To the mausoleum – lovely gate, hypnotic mosaics in the first courtyard, in the second, with plain buttressed walls.  Initial impression of the Medina good: feels authentic, but I've seen little…  A square of blue above us. Into the main courtyard – very dignified and noble.  As people take off their shoes, the muezzin sounds (or is it muezzins? What is the plural?  A minaret of muezzins?). Strange that this is the only mosque visitable by non-Muslims – no problems in Egypt, Turkey etc.  [Driving across here, flat, fertile land rising to the hills near Meknes.  Hotel Rif – four star, OK, but always details disappoint.]

Inside: wonderfully delicate marble columns support the fretted arches, fine white lacework, then blue and green, then a rich ceiling.  Women's section opposite the mihrab.  The tomb itself – lovely silhouettes of ogives and pillars and lamps.  A grandfather clock in the corner.  Long, long, long walk past fig trees, families living in tin shacks, to the Great Bassin – impressive but somehow rather pointless (not like the sacred pools of Egypt).  Up to the café at the top of the gardens.  Lots of courting couples – very noticeably the smart set.  Some attractive women (and blokes, I am told).  Very Westernised, some doing schoolwork (as we also saw on Essaouira beach).  

Into the granaries below the royal stables – cold and dark (like the cistern in Istanbul).  High barrel vaults – above which sat, unknowingly. The changing perspectives of the arches – like Karnak.  Golden yellow stone, the blue sky above.  As we return from the open arches to the closed hall, a blast of glacial air.  Ivy falling down from a hole in the roof.  Reminds me of the Serapeum of Saqqara, the huge underground temple to the bulls.  Also very Boullée – those huge, impossible halls.   Luckily we find a petit taxi – with a working meter (a meter showing Pesetas…).

I love the way everyone replies to "Bonsoir" and "Monsieur" - in fact, I think that part of the charm of Morocco is that it has some of the magic of France and none of the tiresomeness of Anglophone tourist spots where mangled English (Glanglish) can get really painful.  Here, obviously, we are not so aware of French errors – as non-Anglophones probably are not with English.

3.6.93 Fes

VolubilisClear early morning, the place to ourselves.  Stunning location on a hill overlooking an almost Paduan plain.  To the Campidoglio, the forum.  Sun already strong.  Who knows what transactions took place in this forum (I think of Pergamon).  Simple but effective triumphal arch.  Strange to see original classical architecture – rather than Renaissance copies.  The view through the arch stupendous – like a Magritte – so unreal in its clarity and contrast with the crumbling stones.  House of the Columns – rather bijou courtyard – you almost imagine the fountain plashing….  Home of the Ephebe – again, a really good sense of how things were here – living.  In the shade of the arch to change films – reminds me of the Ramesseum – sitting in the desperately-needed shade….  Peace (Piece).  The view over the plain presumably little changed in 2000 years.  Nice to be among obviously Western artefacts.  To Bacco e Arianna (sic), alas, the lady a little fugitive.  The Labours of Hercules – very impressive – this place feels so present, not abstract.  But unable to find the mosaics – the lost mosaics of Volubilis…  But stunning.

Fes. Into the Medina – very untouristy outside.  To the Madrasa of Bou Inania – rather like those of Cairo – full of pigeons, decaying, beautiful, and in use.  Up to the students' room – reminds me of San Marco, Florence, no pix… Then up again, fragmentary view of the city's roofs...

The bark of the gelato man.  A donkey with a packed fridge on its back.  A man advertising himself as "sociologue", a radio from the 1950s.  A man repairing a car radio.  Into a fondouk.  Full of flies, not camels.  Striking bits of dead sheep (later we see a man carrying the flayed skins).  Then down to a carpet factory – warehouse Balia – lovely spiel from salesman – "what's your favourite colour?  Which is your favourite?"  - to which I answered "all of them".  But prices quite reasonable.

Cretinous restaurant service tonight – big group in, so they can't cope with us.  Nearly full moon.

4.6.93 Fes

Place Nejjaarine. A quiet corner, lovely fountain.  We have finally (?) lost our "guide" – using the books instead.  Past Zaouia de Moulay Idriss – very ornate.  Fewer tourists and generally quieter – Friday?  Round to main mosque – tantalising glimpses.  The to dyers' souk – empty – across bridge and petit taxi to car for abortive drive around the walls.  Fes reminds me of Venice, with its enclosed feel, its lack of traffic, its dark alleys, its shops and homes on top of each other.  Fes el Bali is separate from the new city, so self-contained.  Entering its walls is really to enter another world.

We are sitting in the boulevard opposite our hotel – another characteristic green-tiled building to our left.  After another (abortive) visit to the dyers' souk (closed) – and nearly coming to blows with two to four "guides" (very persistent), we flee back to the hotel, then here, a salon de thé nearby.  Fine music playing, mint tea in front of us.  Sky veiled, cooler now.  Amazing the vastly different racial types here – interesting to know if there is racism – for example vis-à-vis the Berbers.

5.6.93 Marrakesh

Eating the best cherries of my life (From Fes) in suite 214.  500 kilometres – plus a speeding ticket (for doing more than 40 km/h).  Stopped for this "infraction" – I was fined 35 Dirham (about £3) – but 20 Dirham "sans écrire" – "you don't want a receipt, do you…?" Of course not, officer…

Yesterday a strange day.  We were half contemplating leaving that afternoon for somewhere – Casablanca, or Plage des Nations – but couldn't get through to the hotel there.  The effect of our encounter in Fes el Bali – we were getting tired of the stress.  Instead we were up at 5.30am this morning, and drove almost non-stop for seven and a half hours.  Arrived here at 1.30pm, ate subito.  

Fun last night when we came to pay.  They wanted us to pay for two meals that we thought were the demi pension.  The cashier, the maître d', all became involved, but wouldn't budge. But something weird happened.  Hovering in the foyer like some white wizard – Gandalf, in fact, dressed in a long white robe and pointed hat (Ku Klux Klan style).  Tall and very imposing, he started berating the poor cashier.  Saying I was right, and that he (the cashier) would have to pay the difference.  The cashier wilted at this, and I felt guilty that some bloke being denied 100 Dirham.  But the old man (late 50s) was very impressive – I could imagine taking orders from him, even though I had nothing to do with him.

Then there was the worm.  Ordering a lamb tagine that took ages to arrive (and had to be sent back to be reheated, as at Meknes), we spotted a white, slug-like thing.  Exit horrified waitress, enter a clutch of waiters who eventually decide it is bone marrow.  Hmm.  We didn't pay for that, but nonetheless…

Strange but apt that we retraced our path almost exactly – like a conservative field, or as if we had gone out on elastic.  Returning to Marrakesh that has been our constant focus.  

A meal in the hotel – too tired to go out.  Good Euro food, resinous wine (cf. that restaurant under the Acropolis…)  And everywhere the music – though not what I was expecting in Ouarzazate – a strange mixture of Beethoven's Fifth and Peter Gabriel; in Fes, Tristan und Isolde; and here, Black Box.  Trouble is, we cannot switch off the room's radio… 

6.6.93 Marrakesh

Saadien's Tombs.  Picturesque quarter – the twelve columns glorious – unusual grouping, unequal distance.  The walls and ceiling positively palpitating with movement – bubbling.  Simple columns but rich capitals, tombs very simple.  The mihrab room: four pillars, patches of mosaic on the floor, hypnotic ceilings – those attempts to get around the prohibition on representation.  Annoying to think of these hidden from view for years. The niches with their beehive ornamentation.  Vertiginous.  To the El Badii Palace – reminds me of Egypt, of Ramses III – but far less impressive.  This empty shell rather sums the place up, alas.  Lots of storks.  Water in middle with island – reminds me of Lombok.

Back to "our" café - Argana – for a thé à la menthe.  Jemaa el-Fna relatively empty.  Arabic newspapers: never having read one, I can still comment that their typefaces tend to lack elegance, headlines being thick and heavy.  Into the souk (with guide), to the Almoravid Koubba, poor but interesting, and then to here, the Madrassa Ben Youssef - very fine – though even all this was destroyed and rebuilt many times.

A final blow-out in the hotel's restaurant, a good buffet, and some more of the excellent cream goat cheese we had this morning.  Brought to us specially…  Sunbathe, then to the centre artisanal – where we narrowly escape buying a carpet.  To the café, and then a fun time crossing the Jemaa.  Assailed by women who wanted to sell (1 Dirham), then "give", silver bracelets – then started forcing them on me.  Meanwhile a small boy with a shirt over his arm approached – a trick I recognised.  We fled – literally – to find that my marsupial had been opened – though nothing stolen (I think) – the old tricks are always the best.

Then to the Marrakesh Restaurant – sunset really beautiful tonight.  The crowd below less thick.  [Arriving here, a bloke with a pair of cymbals played for five minutes – then demanded money – which I didn't give – and he finally gave up.]  Fine red wine Ksar – very rich and full.  Pigeon pastilla, tagine.  Sadly, we are the only ones here.  Another pregnant cat – symbol of plenitude here – the sixth or seventh we've seen (don't they know about condoms?).  A large tip – partly out of sympathy.  Place Jemaa el-Fna quieter than last week, but bustling.  We find a taxi, and depart.

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Sunday, 5 April 2020

1996 Helsinki, Tallinn

3.12.96 Helsinki

Nice airport – shame about the wait for luggage. Up early, 3.30am to Linate, touchdown in Stockholm, to here.  The land of the mobile telephone and the trilingual society – Finnish, Swedish and English.  The women blonde-ish, the men mousey – but often tall and thin, very Lutheran-looking.  I seem to have a problem with Finno-Ugric peoples: as in Turkey, they have lost my luggage… (which is not fatal, since I have everything important in the black bag, including basic clothes…)  Some snow on the ground, grey day.  There are trams – a civilised place. Lots of outcrops of rocks and green – nature is close.  Lots of shops for mobile phones, as if the whole Finnish economy is kept going artificially.

Her waters broke about the time I set foot in Finland… Looks dodgy…  The Man will try to call back Thursday (anyone know any good saints to pray to?)  I go out in the 4 o'clock gloom.  His house is ten minutes from hotel – very near the centre of the city.  Interesting street full of restaurants.  I think that we just passed each other – him with suitcase and father (?) on their way to the hospital…

Typical gaunt nineteenth-century Nordic – a bit like a college quad.  Simple black-framed windows.  Even has bikes in the stair wells.  Tram line passes outside the window (#6 tram).  At the end of the road, "Seaside Hotel" – seems unlikely, but true: Helsinki is surrounded by water [and everyone stands around with a mobile phone to their head].  He lives over a ladies' hairdresser, two empty corner shops, household appliances.  Nice brass nameplate on his door – looking just like college digs.  

To the Cafe Aalto in the Akademiska Bokhandeln.  Well, what a day.  Not content with spiriting away my luggage, the gods (Finnish) also feed me poisonous  food – fried meat/potatoes – so I'll probably have food poisoning too…  One thing though: Linus Torvalds lives in Kalevagatan – Kaleva; Kalevala = Kaleva land.  The centre of Helsinki very attractive. - and very Xmassy.   But one thing that is strange: there are no public clocks.  And so now it feels like 9pm (I think it's about 5.15pm), so dark is it.

4.12.96 Helsinki

The tourist office has never heard of Linus Torvalds.

People stop at pedestrian crossings until green – even if the road is empty.  Finland one of the most connected countries – Net Wizards.  Need mobile phones to keep ears warm from the wind.  Spareness in architecture – be it Lutheran cathedral, or Alvar Aalto's modernism – plain lines.  (Kalevala is old, primitive.)

Saw Hannu Savolainen this morning (the smorning).  Mumbling somewhat, but the tape seems to have caught it.  Increasingly I get the feeling that Linux hackers prefer Usenet/email rather than meeting physically.  (Finns hack code because it's so dark and there's nothing else to do?)

The most famous living Finn? (Well, you name one…)

To Zetor's.  Full of tractors and a witty menu.  Surprisingly nice ambience – all little wood enclaves.  My interview with Lars Wirzenius was good – he was there before even Linux was – good angles on the future – and the first period over, Linux hack finished.  The waitresses typical Finn pixies, short, dumpy, blonde hair short, and the obligatory wire-frame glasses.

Linux is interesting as a new kind of life-form.  It is designed to evolve, picking up enhancements.  "First software organism".  Copyleft ensures that the source code – the DNA – is always present.  True it needs a complex environment – computers, the Internet, human minds – but then animal life's preconditions are extreme (try changing key physical constants like G (gravity) or e, the charge on an electron – no life.  This is Linus' gift to the world: setting up Linux as an extensible system that is independent of him.  Like Berners-Lee – created right mix of design to be self-supporting.  Interesting that both are Europeans, creating open extensible systems.

Main course (salmon pie) OK – but fried (as is so much here: life's tough if you are off fats).  But the star was the bread: black, sweet/sour and delicious (also same bread at breakfast [which was quite acceptable, more salmon than you could shake a stick at, pickled herring]).  Lunch at Stockmann's – nice airy restaurant on the sixth floor, reasonable salad.  By night (that is, most of the time), Stockmann is lit like the proverbial – and damn fine it looks too…

5.12.96 Helsinki

Still waiting for that interrupt…

Slept ten hours last night – must be the lack of light here.  Grey, wettish morning.  Along to the cathedral.  As I recall: so stark – barely a picture or statue to break its neo-classical purity.  Box pews, all neatly numbered by row.  Only ornament a fine organ and circular pulpit.  Four chandeliers, ornate and gilded – the rest just pure semi-circles and a few Ionic columns (the simplest apart from basic Doric).  This is the heart of old Helsinki.  Senate Square – looks very like St. Petersburg (same architect).  Cathedral started in 1830, designed by Carl Ludwig Engel.  Grey-pink granite cobbles (rectangular, 8" by 3"), cut through by tram lines.  Pale yellow wash reminds you of St. Petersburg.  

In the Ateneum (still no news), eating too much food and drinking (again) some of the worst coffee in Europe (kahvi).  The huge building site opposite the parliament (and near my hotel) turns out to be the Museum of Contemporary Art, being finished December 1997.  Designed by Steven Holl, takes form of chiasma – winning design, simplicity and spareness again.  Open to the public 1998, "walls and ceiling are white plaster, with the aim of creating tranquillity and simplicity".  Has small waterfall running through building.  [Online info system.]  Just my luck: only 3 Akselli here (all depicting Kullervo); the others on tour in Oslo (?).

Back in hotel: strange to find Torvalds, Linus, in the phone book – like finding…?  Tore it out – so if you find this page missing in a Helsinki hotel, you know who did it. Wandering around for an hour, looking for a restaurant – so bloody expensive.  End up in Kosmos, Kalevagatan (of course).  Bit smoky, and they showed me to a lousy table, but very full and good buzz.

Although frustrating in many ways, at least today I bought some items: three Finnish CDs and two books on Akseli Gallen-Kallela (I also had to break open my case, since the lock has gone on it – dancing around in the nude this morning, trying to get clean clothes…)  I read one Gallen book – rather depressing, as these things often are.  The gradual waning and decay.  Food not bad: smoked eel and celery soup, pike perch (poached) plus blueberries – and the odd Finlandia vodka to wash it all down.

6.12.96 Helsinki

Well, this is droll. After bogging over to the West Terminal at 6.45am to go to Tallinn, what do I find but both boats are full: it appears that Finns pop over to Tallinn as Brits do to Calais – everyone here carrying empty suitcases.  I wonder what they buy.  I'm on the waiting list, but they don't seem very hopeful.  Torvalds: rings at 18.30 yesterday to tell that his wife has podded – a couple of hours earlier wouldn't have hurt, eh?  Ah, perhaps I know why: today is Independence Day.  So probably everyone has the day off.  Damn.  And all the museums are shut.  What a bummer.  

Well, here I am, on board… waiting around for returns is unusually effective.  Mind you, I am deeply ambivalent about doing this.  In the hotel (Ramada Presidentti), I was very reluctant to go out.  Must be old age.  Once in the bus I felt happier: clearly there is a kind of travel inertia and travel momentum.  Now on the boat, I wonder.  Packed to the gunwales, a Russian ship, you can't move for people.  Moreover, the safety instructions are few and far between.  I am now sitting very near the lifeboats (inside – but if necessary, I'll stay outside too).  Travelling out in the darkness (at 8 am) is also unsettling.  At least the sea seems reasonably calm, and no mist obvious.  Perhaps the darkness helps explain why people here are drinking beer (for breakfast?).  Clearly these are just binges – another factor that does not engender confidence (though perhaps the competition will be less…).

[Another cheering aspect: passing one of the cabins used by the crew, I saw a photocopy of an article: "The last voyage of the Estonia: A new theory for its sinking" – or something.]

Sitting in bus 92 – included in the price, which is civilised.  Changed pounds into Kroon – to add to my collection.  A cold grey day – but hey, I'm in Estonia.  Very nice terminal this side – looks just like an airport.  Helpful info desk.

What can one say, but wow?  In the Toomkirik on the hill.  Here is like Vilnius, Prague, only more so: beautiful eighteenth-century houses and palaces, falling to pieces (but some being restored: not long before it becomes prettified – and saved, of course).  Organ music (live – with wrong notes) playing in this tranquil place.  Interesting to see signs in Russian, and to hear it spoken.  All these places in the world, waiting for me to visit them…  Fine box pews here too, painted lime-green, and green-blue.  The basic wall colour white, with coats of arms (guilds).  At the back of the church, huge triple deck radiators, clanking away.  Monuments in German.  Also the coats of arms – maybe not guilds?  The tomb of Samuel Greig – Scot/Russian.  

To the Sub Marte restaurant – fairly smart, in a cellar. At Rüütli, 4.  Warm (especially with a vodka). Taking herring (and apple boiled in wine) and roe deer.  I have the place to myself, despite the hordes on the boat – they obviously have other priorities – as is evidenced by the fact they stayed on bus 92 after it went past the old town.  This restaurant reminds of a similar cellar in Prague – but this has rather more pretensions – nice linen, cutlery, hyper-clean toilets (not to be taken for granted according to Lonely Planet….)  Pity about the music – New York 1950s – nice, but inappropriate.

One thing, in the heart of this crumbling history, you hear the seagull's cry – and remember this is a sea-port.  It's a question of taking the right approach.  Vilnius/Lithuania needs to be reached through its history – Poland and Byelorussia.  Estonia, by contrast, is linked to Finland rather than the rest of the Indo-European world, and should be approached by sea from Helsinki.  So good to see such a small language group revelling in their own.

3.30pm – raining slightly now, but that's all right. As dusk descends, the amber lights in the shops look all the warmer.  Now in a cafe bar just off the main square with the back of the town hall facing me – drinking the splendidly-named glögi – Glühwein – just what you need on a day like this.  Also good for a slightly sore throat I seem to be developing…  This place really is magic.  One thing: the smell of woodsmoke makes me think of India, inevitably, but jarringly.  Mind you, there's a church here that's dedicated to St Nicholas of Bari – nice contrast with a few thousand kilometres betwixt the two.

On board (at 5pm, better early than late, and I've reserved a place in the buffet).  Everyone showing their acquisitions to admiring friends.  In fact Tallinn did have a glow of prosperity – due to these tourists – that Vilnius lacked.  More flash cars – and even mobile phones.  I feel grateful (as ever) to have seen it before it becomes just another attractive European capital.  Surely now is the best time: after the great Soviet sleep has been shrugged off, but before capitalism has its fangs completely in the living flesh.

I sit rather close to the prow in the dining room (I prefer being near the exits, myself), feeling rather too full after eating an extremely fine buffet (or two courses of it at least).  A young lady pianist serenades us.  Ahead of us – a long way, I hope – there are lights of other liners/tankers.  I think of Ιθάκη, and those unbelievable evenings, so far away – in distance, indeed, though not really time (almost exactly six months).

7.12.96 Helsinki

On the way to Linus.

His street an interesting mix: nineteen-century houses, modern blocks, a couple of Chinese restaurants, a Japanese restaurant, Pub Angleterre (sic), a few galleries, cafes, a computer shop "Data Club" (with a row of books on Linux in the window).  Also the ubiquitous Mr Pickwick Pub.  A tattooist, a supermarket, hair salon, and corner shop.  Tram #6 to the Seaside Hotel, the Western Terminal for going to Tallinn.  His building an indescribable orangey-red. Four storeys.  

I feel that the three-odd hours were not very successful.  Too rushed, him pre-occupied, me forgetting to ask things.  This was not as I'd imagined things – but then one has to be "pragmatic" (like Linus).  Along to Konstan Möljä (ironically about 100 metres from L.T.), Hietalahdenkatu 14, for some old Karelian culture.  Wonderful cheese soup, with avocado spread on the rich brown bread, plus vodka to drown my soul (reminds me that L. wants to go to Ireland – "to drink Guinness" there). 

One of the problems – perhaps – is that L.T. is rather focussed.  I rarely managed to strike a spark from him.  And he failed to respond to any gambit.  Place is done out with lots of wood, blocks and tackle, and those elegiac black and white photos from 100 years ago showing ports and ships and long-dead sailors.  Still, all-in-all, things have been quite successful here.  Given the big bummer of Mrs T. sprogging early, I can't complain (but I do).  Daftly, perversely, the thing that makes me happiest from this trip is not even Tallinn (lovely though it was), but the fact that I can understand RTL almost to the point of second-guessing the deeply predictable dialogues.

8.12.96 Helsinki

A very bad night.  Out now by the parliament building – pink granite with Egyptian pillars and heads of Sakhmet (!).  Kiasma stands opposite, a statute of Mannerheim on his horse that travelled 2000 miles.  To Finlandia – concert halls.  Very severe – manages to make Italian marble look as friendly as concrete.  No ornament – just hard lines.  In my beginning is my end and all that: back to the Academic Bookshop for lunch – open and not too busy.  

Last night, my mind was just so full of Linux – and conscious that as ever things had not gone as I'd hoped.  Looking through my questions this morning, I see that relatively few are unanswered, and yet I feel that something essential is missing.  Mr T. for example: I cannot hope to grasp him in three hours.  And the fact that he was preoccupied with his baby – his other baby – meant that persisting was useless.  I was tempted to try to see him today, but will instead use email (appropriate in some ways).  So I leave here dissatisfied, a terrible contrast to the optimism I brought here.

In the airport.  Dead time, waiting.  L.T. quite atypical: light brown hair, thin face, blue (?) eyes – obviously Swedish stock.  Many Finns have oriental features, square-ish heads, blonde hair.  L.T.'s impish grin born perhaps of someone who knows that he knows more than you do in the one area that matters to him: hacking.  Not so much arrogant as supremely self-confident in this sphere.

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