Thursday, 21 May 2020

1993 Mexico

2.2.93 Mexico City

Driving in from the airport after a horrendous flight (bloody KLM), Mexico looked like a cleaned up, civilised (sic) version of Toronto.  Indeed, driving through the centre made Mexico City look like Switzerland in comparison.  Hotel (Royal Zona Rosa) expensive but comfortable (11th floor) – has a good view over the city, which looks very like New York.  And with the circling hills in the distance (hello, smog) I realised that this was also like Srinagar, but after a century of madcap industrialisation.  I suppose that's one of the few benefits of the situation here: no such growth for a while.

Road in from the airport (which was quite like JFK in its chaos) had fast and slow lanes like Jakarta.  Interesting ads: Durex ("Cuestan menos porque duran más"…)  Traffic police are obeyed here, all-in-all (we may yet be proved wrong), we agreed that here seemed infinitely better than Jakarta.  And a sign: "Tlascala".  My heart leapt – this strange reality of the Aztecs living on in the names and language.  And the interesting mix of features seen in the indigenes.

Denny's (corner of Amberes and Londres) – orange juice and flan.  Must be a holiday today – everybody seems out enjoying themselves.  And why not – bright sunshine, coolish air: Zona Rosa reminds me very much of Los Angeles – money around, too: mobile phones, VW Golf 16v, very civilised here.  Be interesting to see other parts.  Have fixed up hotel in Merida – finally, after wandering for a while searching for a suitable agency.

To the National Museum of Anthropology – fantastic cascade/fountain in the the middle.  General anthropology first (nice mammoth hunt) then to the Pre-classical – but signs of that face – ear, nose – frightening – in clay.  And then TeotihuacanQuetzalcoatl – huge coloured forms, the details of the murals.  The pix of the pyramids.  The squat form of Huehueteotl, god of fire, crushed under his brazier.  My first Chac Mool, gloriously bubbly stone, a man sunbathing on his back, holding a plate on his tum – a plate for human hearts.  Amazing abstract concoctions – like one of Picasso's surreal jokes.  Bizarre: a monster with an open mouth – and a man's head inside.

Breaking off halfway – to the restaurant, the sun dappling this page as I write.  A beautiful museum – thoughts inevitably of what-if? - what if Cortés' unbelievable – unreasonable – luck had not held?  Probably a civilisation like China – hermetic, mysterious, perhaps a communist revolution.  Great novel in there… Food simple but seemed good (we shall see).  Restaurant felt like Los Angeles (again), the Contemporary Art Gallery.  

One thing very noticeable in the galleries are the schoolkids arrayed in uniforms and crocodiles.  As in Indonesia, there seems to be (rightly) a real pride in education.  Would that this still held in the West where we foolishly take all this for granted.  Since I regard education as central to everything, I also like uniforms – here, if nowhere else.

The language of the Aztecs – given that it developed from common roots is a perfect example of how particular sounds – the "tl", the "catl" etc – were obviously "liked" and so grew to become the language in a sense.  Language by aesthetic selection.  Driving in to town, the sign "Manchester School of English". Seeing orientals here – makes me uncertain if they are: the Aztec cast is very oriental, and shows its genetic heritage clearly.  On the sample of one day I'd say that some of the most interesting faces in the world are here – the sheer contrast from Roman aquiline profile to chubby Castilian, oriental.

Fine name for a dog: Xolotl – the twin (!) brother of Quetzalcoatl.  Ehecatl – the terrifying Donald Duck of the Aztecs, god of the wind.  La Piedra del Sol – time lost and found. Oaxaca – stunning dark green (malachite?) mask.  Plus a roomful of figures; looking/waiting…  Monumento 2 de San Lorenzo – bloody hell, what a head.  Pock-marked with huge, sad eyes, a neat helmet, earrings.  What a sight – worth coming just for this, almost…  El Luchador – oriental in a way.  The magnet-shapped "yugos".  The tattooed sculpture with the deformed heads – sloping forehead.  Sculptures like Aardman figures.  Maya – those faces.  The characteristic hieroglyphs – so delicate.  Almost Balinese.  The lively ceramics.

At the sound of music, we gyrate – and find an Aztec minimalist band – drums, tortoise shells, flutes, conchs, ocarinas, stone "xylophones".  However "inauthentic", it does at least give a vague idea of what perhaps the conquistadores might have heard. Outside, the flying Aztecs, four of them hanging from their ropes.  A green taxi back – VW Beetle – with front passenger seat removed.

3.2.93 Merida

Usual ructions: leaving at 4.30am, having checked that they knew we paid, find that they don't believe us.  Argue – with minutes ticking away.  Last night the bath stopped working, then the toilet stopped working.  The country is falling to pieces.

Failed to eat in Denny's, where we had been twice, and went to Café de Londres (on Londres) – which attempts to be swish, but fails rather.  Spent the afternoon fixing up a hotel for the return – not the Royal.  Went to the Grand Hotel – also Howard Johnson owned.  Amazing interior, like Royal Scottish Museum, only more sumptuous, if more ragged.   Rooms OK.  But – full for 13/14 – St. Valentine's Day, I suppose.  This was the hotel recommended by STA – good recommendation.  My one consolation of having paid through the nose for the other is that at least we discovered that the Zona Rosa is much better than both the guide books would lead you to believe.  Rather relaxed and civilised.  Even the boot-shines with their almost papal thrones on which you are ensconced are a part of it.

Then went to Majestic – also rather faded, but with a certain grandeur and stunning view on to the Zócalo (not the Plaza de la Constitucion, as the lady cab-driver plainly signalled to us).  But the problem here, few double beds.  So on to the Ritz, which didn't really live up to its name, then back to the Majestic – where we have the brainwave of asking about suites – which only cost $88 a night (half that of the Royal).  We saw room 714 – up a tiny flight of stairs to the three-room suite – but no view.  Assured that a room will have a view, we booked. Zócalo area looking fascinating – very bustling, more third world.  To think that under it all lies the rubble of the Aztec empire…  

Another reason Mexico City looks so American is the use of the green road direction signs.

More problems.

Flight excellent.  Efficient, modern airport, new plane, good breakfast.  Gook off at 6.50am, still dark, flying into sunrise.  Mists/cloudy below, but a few mountains visible, and then out over the sea.  Flying over Yucatan (ah, the romance of words) – very flat, rather dull, or perhaps frightening.  Into Merida airport – international, strangely enough (our flight connected with Miami).  Taxi to our reserved hotel Posada Toledo.  Through some pretty depressing areas, very like Yogyakarta.  First glimpse of hotel good – very moorish.  But the rooms dark, smelly, old.  So we churlishly slink out, saying we want to "think about it".  Pathetic.  But how to extricate ourselves from the situation?

Then to where I sit, Casa del Balam.  And where I sit again, three hours later, in the charming courtyard beside the bubbling fountain, waiting for chicken pibil.  Very pleasant colonial feel, with tropics very much in evidence – that wet, dark jungle smell – so like Indonesia.  The throat feels better already.  And where I sit again, back in our room (204).  So, to the hotel: room available, nice (see below), but price N$320/night – high.  I ask whether a discount is available for six nights – we go to the office and argue – to no avail.  But it turns out that discounts would be available if we booked through a travel agent.  The man at the desk kindly suggests going to the travel agent next door.  Which we do.  And sure enough, they offer a discount – to N$300.  Could we have more, please? Nope.  For some reason, I stay there, and we plead again.  Finally to N$275 – about £65-70.  Too much really, but we hated the other place.

So, finally, a room for six nights here.  And very nice it is too.  Two double beds, lovely ironwork bed-heads, quaint truncated column for the TV stand, hot water.  Tiled floor that (even more than the rest) reminds me of Hotel San José, in San José, Spain.  Rather noisy if only because Merida seems full of huge buses without silencers, and motorbikes with especially loud motors.

And all this by 9.30am.

The city itself is curious – to my eyes, anyway, because of its grid system – far more rigorous than New York's, for example.  The whole city just goes on, repeating itself.  At least the area round the Zócalo is quite attractive.  Beautiful lush garden in the middle with lovers' chairs (facing and side by side).  The glum old cathedral (the oldest in Mexico – and therefore America, I suppose), built with and on the stones of a Mayan temple.  Quite good colonial buildings around the square.  We take a drink in a café; the traffic is appalling and we flee soon.

On the way to the Zócalo, down Calle 60, we see this boy standing outside a watch shop, wearing boards advertising its wares.  He does not move, his eyes have that terrible, intense vacancy that I somehow associate with the natives of Latin America.  We must pass him several times that day, and each time I felt his immobility the more, such a terrible symbol of his poverty.  Back to the hotel for lunch.  Then to bed – we have been up since 4am (again), and I am frankly tired.

Out again, this time in search of the market.  The streets start to blur, like an endless nightmare.  The traffic thunders, the people swarm by.  And again those sudden shocks of Mayan profile, of "pure" native features.  There seems to be little real Indian (as in India) poverty, but little wealth either.  Only one Walkman that I saw in hours.   The people, even the hawkers, very unpushy.  You say "no", they go.  If I wanted to generalise, and be pompous (moi?), I'd say that they have a dignity about them.  Interesting to note, too, that in the cathedral there were many men, obviously devout.

To a nice café in the little square near the hotel.  Hotel Caribe and Gran Hotel around it lend an air of faded glories.  A two-man band strike up on a weird twangling xylophone.

4.2.93 Merida

Back to the square, almost bearably noisy.  Breakfast in the rather nice surroundings of the café by the tourist office: enormous ceilings, striking clocks, good value food.  We are the first there.  Then out to book car.  Hertz – an agent thereof – in the forlorn hope that it will be more reliable.  One thing: everywhere you go there are telephone stands – posts with three or four keypad phones – almost always in use.

Before, we went to the square and looked at the murals in the mayor's palace – all rather bloodthirsty stuff, reflecting the rather bloodthirsty history of this oppressed people.  Also went into one shop (looking for the Pemex road map) and saw the (in)famous encrusted beetles: living brooches covered in stones.  Er, yes, how do you use/wear them?

Back to Café Peon Contreras.  Strange fondu followed by rather sickly cheesecake.  Weather just right for sightseeing: overcast but bright, the air quite pleasantly moist and warmish – t-shirt weather.  To the museum of folk art – hidden away – reminds me of similar museum in Jakarta.  Very small: a room with 15 bird cages and baskets; another with Dia de los Muertos figures.  Weird masks from Tlaxcala – for a ceremony… The fantasy in the forms, the pix showing the people: there is still a world here to discover.  Clay planes looking like pterodactyls.  A faded pic: the gaze of a little hunchback, sculpting in wood, a ghost of a moustache on his lips.  Through to the shop – a museum in itself.  The heady smell of straw, and fabrics.  Reminds me of Fiji…  We spend some time looking around the attached shop of folk stuff.  Much nice, but – like the pottery candelabra – impossible to transport.  For all its gimcrack nature, the museum does convey well the variety and vitality of the native arts.

One thing I have noticed is the lack of dog pooh – and of dogs – in this city.  In fact, I have not seen a single dog – though they were selling kittens, barely able to stand, in a souvenir shop (???).

We pass the main Yucatan restaurant, though it is a little early for the evening. We eat in Tiano's – nice chicken and corn fries.  Some band and drummer, lots of triplets and syncopations, some more twangling sounds.  Square very full, most of the tables occupied.  Strange paper decorations hang from wires: spheres with lights, made of paper and covered in crepe.  We saw animals made thus for sale in the market yesterday.  Carnival time?

At lunch time, a tiny girl – 3? - offered us chiclets for sale.  We said "no", but repented, called her back and ended up paying N$4 for four of them.  That is, four chiclets, not four packets.  But you can't be mean here: the Mexicans are very tolerant.  And the beggars, like the hawkers, are remarkably complaisant, moving off quite readily.  It's still too early to say, but I feel tempted to say how well-balanced it all appears here – and functional.

Today I have been, as I like to say, very weak.  I bought a Mayan grammar in Spanish, and in English (by the splendid Mr Tozzer, who refers to Mr William Gates…).. After, some Mayan tales.  Very interesting.  It is strange, but reading about how all the American languages have been pulled together suddenly made me feel closer to them.

Again, at supper, those sudden, Mayan profiles.  We visited another museum today, next to this square where we ate – Pinacoteca de Mérida Juan Gamboa Guzmán.  Full of obscure, quite touching Yucatan artists' works.  Good space with it whitewashed walls, the flight of stairs with a sudden turn in it.

Lovely evening, sky clearing, the moon comes out, very bright.  The cathedral facade catches the late sunlight, looking like Monet's Rouen series.  People just sit around in the square, everything very peaceable.

And tomorrow on the road: White VW: YZM 911 (Yucatan, Mexico).…

5.2.93 Merida

Well, here I am in Uxmal, at the top of the Wizard's pyramid, after a pretty vertiginous climb.  The steps are shallow – about 6 inches deep – and very steep, more than 45 degrees slope.  But it is worth it: utterly stunning view of the almost unbroken forest – so flat, so hot – barely a cloud in the sky.  Typically British – I have a jacket, white hat, jeans – because Montezuma took his revenge last night; but the drive has cleared my head.  Lovely view of the Nuns' Quadrangle.  Now down.  Going down was worse than going up.  And the other side has deeper steps – even harder.  To the Nuns' Quad.  That smell of antiquity – damp stone, dust.  Great stone here: yellow-orange.  The deep carvings need the sun – and get it today.  Outside now – exhausted.  I see the steps up to the sights like Kathmandu/Borobudur.  Heat pretty savage when you're not feeling brilliant.  

Drive back – which strangely makes me feel better. Some thoughts on Mexican driving.  They are remarkably law-abiding – never jumping lights, and only overtaking when it is relatively safe.  They are also pretty patient, and fairly slow off the mark at lights. The worst thing about driving here is the speed bumps – down to first gear and slow if you want to preserve your axle and wheels.  Even found on the main ring road – strange and rather dangerous for me seeing everyone suddenly grind to a near-halt.  Driving in Merida is simplified enormously by the logical arrangement of the one-way streets in a grid.  

Driving through the city you see amazing colours – yesterday we tried to photo a mint-coloured monstrosity that looked totally unbelievable.  Today, pinks and blues.  Lots of crumbling stucco.  And barely anything above one storey.  This combines with the level landscape to produce a city that is almost abstractly flat.

The drive to Uxmal (Ush-mal) was fairly easy, though longer than I expected.  The VW's pedals are very high and the third gear is suspect.  But reasonably comfortable.  Roads are pretty well signposted.  Also saw a couple of Green Angels who patrol these roads looking for those in automobilic distress.  Arrived at Uxmal at about 11 am, not too many tours then, though the Cancún contingent turned up later (a journey and a half).  Cheap to get in, good tourist facilities as you enter. 

Up the steps to the first and best: the Wizard's/Magician's Tower.  Just very impressive and quite frightening as a physical experience.  The views frightening too: just scrubby forest for as far as the eye can see.  I began to appreciate what it must have been like for the conquistadores as they slogged through all this stuff.  Again, that will of Cortés – his expedition through Guatemala – took as long as the conquest of Anahuac… The Mayan names are so un-Aztec: Oxkutzcab, Xlapak, Tixkokob

Of course the presence of the trees everywhere rather obscures things, makes it more romantic – and gives some shade.  Which I needed, even with my beanie hat and jacket.  The sun was pretty intense, and I was getting weaker and weaker.  We went to the Nuns' Quad  where you could hear clearly from the opposite side.  Through the arch to the ball-court with its crazy hoop.  The suggestion that to lose meant death.  It is so hard to imagine all these things happening.  Then after admiring geckos and butterflies and hummingbirds (?) to the Governor's Palace with its astronomical alignments.  Again to try to conceive of the days these things happened, what people felt…  Uxmal is all the more impressive for being stuck in the middle of this dry wasteland.

To the restaurant for two cups of sugary lemon tea (for energy and to fill the objecting stomach).  Then I lie down for 30 minutes, dozing.  Better afterwards.  I watched the beautiful clouds dissipate high above me, see faces in them, hands, strange forms. High there with them huge birds (vultures?) that we had seen on the road, circling something.  I remember Fatehpur Sikri

Then the road back, stuck behind three huge American trailers – bloody enormous.  The journey back, as ever, easier.  Drop the car outside the hotel for someone to park (the benefits of a £70 hotel), then round the markets looking for a swimming costume and hat.  Everything seems closed.  Ironic: yesterday we were deluged with hats, caps; today we couldn't find a hat seller when we needed one.

To the square by the Gran Hotel, definitely the centre of the evening scene.  I am struck again by how basically decent and happy the people seem here.  They appear to harbour little rancour or envy towards rich tourists; in the shops they hardly press you to buy, seeming almost indifferent. They are calm, and peaceable, and have no real machismo.  Indeed, the women wear miniskirts and shorts – without the usual male lewdness that often greets such things.  Young couples walk around, young families ditto with sleeping bambini.  The Mariachi xylophone band plays away, the night is stunningly clear with the nearly full moon blinding, and a planet a bright point in the sky.  I think one could be happy here in some ways, and that the locals have reached an equilibrium with things.  But it will be interesting to see what Oaxaca is like.

6.2.93 Merida

Slow, easy drive north to Progreso.  As ever, the grid system, to the beach – practically empty – huge white sands.  Very shallow apparently.  Practically all closed here.  Heat tremendous, plus good breeze.  Waters milky turquoise.  Ceviche and merlo for lunch – fresh fish landed as we sat on the terrace. Walking along the promenade, we see huge black clouds roll in from the east.  More extraordinary, the sea turns opalescent – but bright – against this background.  As if an unskilled painted had done painting by numbers – and got it wrong.  Now it is raining – and then some – and we sit in our VW, as if on the Brighton seafront, with the difference that it is warm even with the wind and the rain.

Progreso, at this time of the year at least, is rather charming.  Few people, very sleepy, nice weather (pace the rain).  Also very untouristy – few Yanks/Euros come here, it seems.  To my left, the jetty (miles long) disappears into the storm, with the mid-point building looking like a Scottish castle in the gloom.

7.2.93 Merida

Chichen Itza: this is what we have come for: majestic stone buildings in almost Oxbridge-like grass.  Up the main temple – not so shallow.  Very impressive, the central pivot of the surrounding monuments.  The ball-game – it felt as if it had been used yesterday, the grass neatly clipped, the high hoops, just waiting…

Glorious weather: breezy, sun not too hot.  Crowds absent so far.  The images of the players in the court: very clear, very alien.  This place feels very real, whereas Uxmal felt more of a romantic folly.  Brilliant carvings outside the ball court – I think of Hatshepsut's Temple – and that bloody Frenchman…  Inside the great pyramid - 62 steps, up to the usual features: jaguar throne, Chac Mool. Nowhere near as impressive as the Big One in Egypt.  Crude stonework.

To the 1000 pillars.  The view: this place looks like a kind of Mayan heaven, the stones, the undulating light green-grey.  Poor crumbling Chac Mool next to us, sat upon and abused by all the bloody tourists – French again.  What have they got against the past?  The pyramid beautiful from here, its east face crumbling, the steps zigzagging down.  The foliage thicker here than at Uxmal, richer and greener.  The covered buildings carry less conviction than the Egyptian ones, while the pyramids work brilliantly.  Through the pillars – very Greek, I felt in Crete or somewhere – then to the southern group.  More fragmentary, and again the covered buildings don't convince.  The observatory interesting for its unexpectedly modern design.  

The main group remain obviously the thing here.  Also, I find the repeated heads with the beaked nose – the rain god – a little wearing.  But the main area gives a sense of the tremendous scenes that must have unfolded here – the pomp, the milling throngs – things seen best by Cortés and his men – and seen more or less last by them.  

Apt, then, that we should be here at the mid point of this all-too short trip.  In many ways, this is the reality of all the images/vague thoughts I have had of Middle America.  It is certainly proving the perfect intro to Latin America, and I wish to return, and range further afield – perhaps mimicking the extraordinary migrations which are beginning to fall into place.

The drive was good – once we were out of bloody Merida.  Murphy's Law seems to be that the road you want in Merida is always going in the wrong direction.  But halfway we hit a rather anomalous toll-road – N$18 – worth it for the speed and comfort.  I sit now in the café of the site, nothing special, but efficient as the rest of the place is.  The Mexicans/Yucatans do a good job in this respect.

I am struck at how unreliable the guide books – Lonely Planet and Cadogan – have been.  Both about details – hotels, for example, and generalities – safety, "niceness" etc.  Perhaps Mexico is changing quickly…

Back in Merida – Sunday is the day.  "Our" square has huge queues snaking all over the place: for the two cinemas here.  The bars are full, and there are three musicians singing, playing guitars.  Calle 60 completely closed here – except for horse-drawn carriages, used by the locals.  The main square alive with stalls.  The queues: Mexicans seem very good at this as at other civilised behaviours.  Singing quite fine in the Mexican idyll sort of way – all parallel thirds and sixths, maracas, and swaying guitars with the added roulade.  Idyllic is the word: everyone out in their Sunday best, the sun setting, casting a glow on the church opposite, blue sky overhead...life is not half…

In the Plaza de la Independencia.  Stalls like a funfair, balloons, candyfloss, a stand-up female comic, roast corn-cobs with cheese and cream, behind me the cathedral full of organ and voices, bright single bulbs illuminating the stalls, their long leads trailing across the pavements.  Interesting little pedal carts, covered, four-seaters.  And everywhere, but everywhere, that Mayan profile.  In jeans, in suits, in skirts, in hot pants, in swaddling clothes.

The stall selling religious artefacts seems to have a good trade.  Interesting how religion seems to have rooted here – perhaps because of the indigenous philosophies.  Perhaps because as a still downtrodden people Christianity gives them most hope.  

To the restaurant Bella Epoca, sitting on the balcony – first time I have ever done this.  Great with no traffic – impossible with.  Beautiful evening – the sounds of the church (a bell like an old tin bath, the choir and the organ), the marimba players in our square, Mexican "muzak" here.  Nice murals inside, chandeliers.  Below us pass the bike carts, looking like something out of "The Prisoner".  Stars starting to peep through the clouds above, bright points of white light.  

Even from here we hear the bloody bus – with the specially-designed silencers that amplify the sounds…

Mexican wine from Baja California – very dry – reminds me (he said pretentiously) of the Georgian wine I had in Moscow that first time there, bought by a kind American in our Intourist group  It was like sherry almost.  Wonderful food (so far): chicken, pork, sausage, tomato, avocado, beans – with the lovely dry wine complementing nicely.  In our hotel when we return, a trio of serenading singers/guitarists.  A lovely end to a lovely day – pity the moon, full this weekend, was too low and partially obscured by cloud.

8.2.93 Merida

I am at lunch now.  Miserable day outside: cold and wet.  Strange that such weather can be wonderfully romantic somewhere like Venice or Paris, but merely woeful here.  This morning (or "the smorning" as I still, 30 years after I first tried to do it, want to write) took the car back, hoping to save a day £33).  And did eventually, after a nightmare trip to fill the bloody tank up (Hertz charges double real rate if it does it).  I shouldn't have bothered, but luckily nothing happened.  In the exiguous south-east Mexican newspaper I saw a premonitory notice: yesterday a hire care driven by a German tourist was involved in a crash; there but for…

Reading Diaz at the moment: great "but let's get back to my story".  Thucydides it ain't, but it has pace and a "I was there" charm.

9.2.93 Oaxaca

In the café at Merida airport, which is rather nice.  Pity neither of us wants to eat much.  A little twin prop awaits us, touching down twice on its way to Oaxaca.  Very strange night, partly because we had to wake at 2am to take one of the magic anti-nausea pills, and partly because I was sweating out a fever I had, so my dreams were odd – all Tlaxcala-y.

Flying in our little, rather noisy twin-prop over the salt marshes of Yucatan, and thence to the sea.  To think this was the coast Cortés sailed around, in the days when the New Spain they were inventing could have been anything – infinite even…

Into Villahermosa airport – very green, lush, lots of water, palm trees, big winding rivers.  Lots of green fields – not necessarily used for anything that I could see.  Now flying among the mountains with the odd bit of turbulence.  Among the hills and valleys, amazing scenery after Yucatan – looked like Nepal – rather more my image of Latin America.  You get a hint of the Aztec city states – like the Greeks – or the Irian Jaya tribes living apart.

And so in to Oaxaca ("c" is pronounced as "s").  Stunning flight in: the land arid, often not a road in sight, and so little vegetation.  Flight into Oaxaca strange because we flew in almost level, the ground rising to meet us.  Reminded me a lot of Kathmandu, getting out of the plane to be ringed by mountains under a deep blue sky.

Driving through the city to get to our hotel, the Stouffer President [now Quinta Real], Oaxaca looked like a more attractive version of Merida: low shops, brightly colours, basic grid system, and the main Zócalo pedestrian only.  

To the hotel – almost shut off from the outside world – as befits an ex-convent – and such a haven of peace and beauty inside. Two main quads, one with a pool, the other with a babbling fountain (where I sit, waiting for some food that I now want).  Lovely whitewashed rooms that remind me of the dormitories in San Marco, Florence (though without the Fra Angelico frescoes).  Lots of green around me, plus what may be bougainvillea (but what do I know of such things…?)  After eating a jet-black sopa de frijoles, I am now (unwisely?) eating another concoction covered in a slightly sweeter black sauce, chicken inside corn pancakes.  Nice, but...demasiado.

To the Zócalo on a lovely, er, February evening.  Beautiful, relaxed town, pedestrian precinct, bandstand and plashing fountain.  Straight off you notice the wider variety of faces (the Mexican flag is being lowered, trumpets and drums sound…).  The only problem with this place is that it seems full of wrinklies – like some huge retirement home.  The hotel is the same: rich, old and bored.

10.2.93 Oaxaca

Brilliant morning: cold air, clear blue sky.  Long night…

Up to Santo Domingo – inside a typically over-the-top riot of gold and curlicues.  A little excessive, but probably useful for impressing the natives.  To the Contemporary Art Museum – reminds me of a gallery in Scrabster (?).  This is beautiful: white walls, bleached wooden benches.  The pix – well, nothing special, but all so well organised – couple of interesting local art mags, good books and posters.  Upstairs to the pix by Flor Garduño.  Exactly my image of these places: stark, grainy black and white pix of Mexico, Bolivia, Guatemala.  Haunting images of ancient peoples, ancient rites, ancient images.

Back to the hotel for lunch.  I had a rather nice beef concoction, steamed in banana leaf with chili sauce – very Sri Lankan.  Then read more of Diaz – which is interesting.  To the city Museum, in the cloisters of Santo Domingo.  Upstairs to the ethnological exhibits.  Amazing figures on the number of non-Spanish speaking natives.  The poor Ixcatecos – 19 speakers of the language… Also strange the hierarchical organisation of the societies – the "cargos".  Los Zapatecos of Oaxaca, third after Nahuatl and Maya.  In 1971, 30% not speaking Spanish.

A fine roomful of ceramics – heads, grotesques etc.  Monte Alban – place of trepanning "for experimental purposes"… Yikes.  To the Treasure of Monte Alban – the carved obsidian – thin.  In the quad, passing through light and shadow: the heat of the former - the rarefied air et al.

In the main square, under the portico of "E. Marques".  Cuba libre (sin hielo – and so rather warm).  Sun very strong, but breezy here.  Oaxaca is much more scenic than Merida because of its gradients, too: the combination of the grid with a plain is not happy.  Men with besoms cleaning again – the city is kept up well – as were the other parts we visited.  From what I can see, Mexico seems a very successfully ordered place.  The trees painted white to head height.  Even the few beggars seem fairly healthy.  To the west, a road straight to the mountains, the air very clear.  Huge trees to my right by the flag we saw lowered yesterday.

11.2.93 Oaxaca

Sitting in the south corner of Monte Alban, the sun 45 degrees in the sky, the place practically empty on this breezy, but completely completely clear day.  Wonderful harmony of colours – earth browns, burnt grass yellows, russets, flashes of green fire in the trees.  For me, this is the most spectacular site, partly because of the harmony, the isolation – and its location.  The levelled hilltop, now covered in a haze, Oaxaca below, lost in smog, alas.

To the palace, then over to the main hill.  The view to the north-west fantastic: crumbling, sun-soaked valleys.  Incredibly quiet and peaceful here – but a little chilly, even with the intense sun, it has to be said.  At the top of the south end – what a view in all directions.  The central area – like a bed of fine sand, dotted with stone islands. 

Back in Oaxaca, the main square, Café del Jardin.  Glorious day.  We remain at the Hotel Presidente.  A melancholy sax plays, strangely complete – perhaps because of the richness of its harmonies, the variety of its registers.  Dappled sunlight on the cobbles, the tall trees' boughs swaying in the breeze.  Roasting by the pool – which is nice, if lethal.  

Passing up to Monte Alban, interesting to see the small villages – so like Indonesia.  Pity about the plastic litter everywhere.  The sun lower now, falling behind the cloister walls.  And just to complete it all, a red hummingbird, feeding from the nectar of the white flowers behind us.  1.5 Cuba Libres under the arcade of Hotel del Conde.  The band playing, dusk falling, postcards vaguely getting written.  Round the square to the restaurant of yesterday, up on the balcony.

12.2.92 Oaxaca

Breakfast in the park.  Cool morning, sunny.  Watching tourists follow their maps like treasure seekers.  Forgot to mention (as ever) the market, the day before yesterday.  Wonderful riot of sights, sounds and – alas – smells.  Fruits, finally, particularly good.  Reminded me of Cardiff market for some ridiculous reason, but actually was much more like Toronto's.  Everyone watching TV.  As were many taxi drivers in Mexico City…

To Museo de Arte Prehispánico de México Rufino Tamayo – past a row of gorgeously-coloured shops – colours that seem to be a product of the clear air.  Lovely pink wash of first room.  Classic Olmec – oriental in features.  Some also look amazingly like Lynda Barry's cartoon characters.  In the Blue Room.  Strange figure of a man in profile with dinosaur-like lumps on the back.  Glorious mottled surfaces.  A Picasso-like figure on a stela.  A case full of fluid forms, funny little noses and hats/hair.  A game of pelota – complete with fans, a Sumatran-type house.  Double clay flutes, four finger holes.  The Blue and Cerulean room, full of dogs and warriors.  Dios de la Muerte, 200-250 AD, but he could be from yesterday.  White Room – horrible beds for deforming the craniums of babies.  Ritual garments, almost a tent of strange shapes.  Stunning stela of a Mayan priest.  The Butterscotch Room – one of those haunting fragments of Aztec maps.  Fine name: Tzintzuntzan.  Rich painted stone used for some carvings – also in our hotel.  To sum up, surely the most consistently fine collection of such artefacts that there is, beautifully presented.

Looking round the souvenir shops near the hotel, and the Guzman church.  One in particular turned into a warren of small rooms hung with increasingly bizarre and almost menacing artefacts.  You could imagine that at the end of it all there was a room with something so horrible that you'd never be able to leave…

13.2.93 Mexico City

That dead time, waiting for the hour of departure.  Last night, we were half-exiled from the world, trapped in our courtyard by the regional folk dance performance, roughly based on the big festival here in July.  Judging by the sound quality as we finally passed through, we didn't miss much.  Strange how absent music is here.  Instead you have noise – like the whale-farting sound at 4am.  Outside, the huge old bus – must be fatal if you hit them – belching acrid fumes and noise.  And yet for all that, Oaxaca is definitely a haven of peace.  Glorious situation, lovely weather. 

To the airport – which has a surprisingly good restaurant.  Amazingly clear view of Monte Alban on the nearest hill.  On the plane – a flash 727, complete with Philips LCD-based TVs in the back of the seat.  Prices clearly dropping.  Views from the plane tremendous: air very clear, and the height we had (from 6000 feet altitude to 6000 feet) gave an original perspective.  Grid-style towns lay like tiny chessboards, craters were pock marks.  Alas, on the wrong side for Popocatepetl.  Flying in over Mexico City – which began so early.  Saw the Anthropological Museum in its poor patch of green.  But no real India-type squalor.

To the Majestic, which it is, even if its glory is faded.  Curious dull orange colour in the hall – makes everything seem hushed.  A fountain burbles at the end.  One lift (still) working.  Our promised suite turns into a double (516).  Nothing special, except for the view, which is classic: Zócalo, dead centre. Unusual design: first floor has a glass floor, and seems to be the bar.  The Zócalo below me, people scurrying around, ant-like.  Couple of Aztecs fighting (well, ish).  On the way here, there were a group of four acrobats – in a pyramid – the top one juggling.

14.2.93 Mexico City

On the terrace, the clock striking 8, but showing 8.20 (it's 8.15).  The huge flag raised with pomp at 7.30am.  The bells going bananas – all very clangorous – very Italian.  Sun hot now after reddish down.  Full buffet breakfast – trying to gain some energy… Remarkably peaceful here – even with traffic.  We slept reasonably well.  Bells now playing semitones, augmented and diminished intervals…

To the cathedral.  Inside, almost filled with great webs of green scaffolding, making it look like some Richard Rogers creation.  It would probably be rather undistinguished without it.  A side chapel with various glass cases of wax figures and a huge altar that looks positively industrial with its jutting broken pediments and great gold bolts.

To the market in the Zócalo (from "socle" – a plinth), haggling.  Then to the Alameda park.  Full of courting couples exchanging St. Valentine's Day gifts.  A guitar twangling away.  Hot but fresh day.  A ball stuck in a tree provides Sunday morning entertainment. St. Valentine's Day very big here – clouds of gaudy helium-filled hearts hover at every corner.  Rather appropriate, really, given the city's Aztec past…

To Zona Rosa for lunch, ridiculously enough in an Italian restaurant.  I ate what was billed as a pizza, which wasn't, but was highly edible.  Everyone out in Sunday best – even though the sun was scorching.  Cops racing around, looking very serious.  Back to the hotel, then out for a drive in one of the taxis, which are cheap here.  Rather nice when banked, bright yellows and frog greens.  Back just as the flag comes down: we rush to see it (am I becoming a tourist?).

Then to the terrace for a rather heavy meal (fool me).  Very nice setting.  Emphasising the pleasantness of Mexico City and Merida – despite the pollution here, the shortness of breath, the noise etc. In the square we bought two wind chimes, made of onyx (?) - £1 each, endearing urchins selling them.  Earlier in the day we bought some knick-knacks.  Bustling market here.

15/16.2.93 Somewhere south-east of Iceland

My body is not really sure which day this is, of course.  Not helped by the strange, in-between time of Monday.  We walked a little – the place strangely full of men with guns, a demo in the square (making a splendid headline one evening paper: "Zócalo").  Lunch in Zona Rosa – back in Denny's, which oddly for a US chain serves good Mexican food.  Blistering heat.  Then back to the hotel – driven by the world's worst whistling taxi driver, who read the newspaper most of the time – to waste the afternoon.

Appropriately enough in this dead time I start reading Under the Volcano" – a book I have been meaning to read for years.  Glad I waited: it is full of unexplained references to "oaxaqueño" and "Zócalo".  Very dense, very depressing, rather over-written but the first section is a brilliant tour-de-force.  Rather racist too, treating the Mexicans as a quaint backdrop.  

To the airport remarkably early – very good driver for a change.  Find queue.  Queue for 30 minutes.  Arrive at head, where I have to ask for seats to be changed – otherwise we'd have been back in the hell of the smoker's section.  Flight relatively empty from Mexico City – glorious view of the sprawling, twinkling mass – such a world away from what old Cortés saw.

And Mexico is a world away, but one accessible by virtue of Cortés and the Spanish language.  I hadn't realised this, stupidly regarding Latin America as essentially, not superficially, Spanish.  Even the religion is only superficially Catholic, with many ancient twists and observances.  I look forward to returning now (with better Spanish, which is indispensable).

Indeed, Latin America offers yet another fascinating case study of language and culture, and how nations are defined, how they can co-exist.  Mexico seems to be remarkably successful, given that it represents several hundred distinct ethnic groups.  Reminds me of India, which now looks less successful.

Also, the physical reality of Mexico was quite shocking – to the lungs.  The altitude of Mexico City – around 2200 metres, and of places like Oaxaca, make all the difference.  I'd love to drive through this country.  Pity about tiresome things like money...

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Sunday, 17 May 2020

1994 France

22.6.94 Vence

Not Saint Paul de Vence – that's just down the road.  A man opposite reads Nice Matin in the dappled shade.  Fine place for lunch, at La Régence Café.  Good journey to Genova, Ventimiglia, Nice, now here.  Telephoned through to a bed and breakfast (sic) near Avignon.  In front of us, a house with curiously mottled plaster…  The light here, of course, is stunning, and the surrounding countryside appropriately scorched and blinding.  Driving along the coast road: amazing series of tunnels with very short flashes of blinding light – almost like some abstract demonstration of something.  Quite an engineering feat.  Not too much traffic – it must be hell in the high season.  First time I have driven the length of France.  The sense of possibility…

Having found this place – Mas de Castellan in Verquières – by the usual serendipity (recommended by someone recommended in a book), it turns out to be a gem.  Cicadas saw hugely in the chestnut trees.  House is ivy-covered, and fresh like a slap in the face as we enter from the oven outside.  A generous lawn at the back leads to the swimming pool, where we now sit. Inside the house an attic of old furniture, very organic.  Interesting images around the place – van der Weyden, collages, original, indeterminate oils.  Our room very simple, pastel shades on plaster, uneven.  

After a swim, shower and rest, to Saint Remy – charming, not too touristy.  To L'Olivier – with a maître d' of incomprehensible accent.  One-way system makes for nice tour of town.  Still very light (22 June) and very warm.  Alas, I cannot touch alcohol, and so I am reduced to aiding the cola empire.  As we come here, we glimpse some wonderful limestone (?) outcrops.  Having decided to stay here another night (I've always wanted to see the Camargue), perhaps we'll find out what.  But really this is a cliché of an idyll: the skies, the landscape, the setting of the house.  Excellent food – mousseline du saumon exquisite.  Fine red sun and near (99%) full moon low in the sky above the field. We return to our room to find contrapuntal frogs outside.

23.6.94  Verquières

Breakfast on the terrace under a huge plane tree, near the pool, looking back to the house.  The sun quite high already, dappling the table cloth.  Behind us, water pours from a gorgeous fish head.  The trees rustle with the refreshing breeze.  Our rooms completely covered in ivy, brownish-red, almost matching the pantiles above.  Long, peaceful night.

To Les Baux (of Bauxite fame).  Passing through Saint Remy again – full of life, the trees shading the street remarkably effectively.  The road to Baux running through the hills – very fine.  Roman ruins outside Remy.  Inside Baux, slightly prettified, but good harmony, great position.  From the top (cf. Sigiriya) hazy view towards Camargue (but no sea…?)  Now sitting by ruins to the east. Very strange, half carved out of the rocks, so half organic, half artificial.

Ici, Arles: sitting in Le Grillon, right by the side of Les Arènes – which are pretty impressive.  Interesting to note that they lie a good 4 metres below the present road level – à la Egypt, I presume.  Utterly clear sky, pretty damn hot.  Useful parking system here: free from 12 to 2, so relatively good time to come.  Place is quiet, provincial, peaceful.  Swifts swoop and soar.  Excellent food: toasted goat's cheese, loup (fish) – excellently presented – fromage frais, all for 79FF – nowhere in England do you find this.

Down to Saint Trophime – very beautiful facade (half covered).  Inside, high and spare – and above all cool in the thunderous heat outside.  Lovely main square (with Musée Lapidaire in Sainte-Anne church), very French.  In the car, moving it, I burnt my finger on the steering wheel, so hot is it…  Back in the Place de la République.  Behind me, a man opens up the Musée Lapidaire: gouts of dark cold air gush out.  To the seaside, Saintes Maries de la Mer. Surprisingly busy – rather disappointing – sea polluted, lots of people.  But fresh breeze.

Now in Restaurant Xa, Saint Remy, rather classy.  We are the only ones [Keith Jarrett playing?]  Xa from Xavier, we learn, who speaks Italian, having spent ten years in Italy.  The foie de canailles excellently balanced by the mostarda.  The wine cool and crisp.  Strange this place – cinematic props, 20s furniture, old crinkled mirrors, tippy tables, good wooden hall-type chairs, candles on all the (otherwise) empty tables.  Darkened-gilt chandelier, 30s clock on the mantelpiece.  Very civilised, to summarise.

24.6.94 Asprières

Valley of the Lot.  Long drive today – though not so much distance as time.  Up to Florac – pleasant winding road, little traffic, lunch there.  Then a little after, too tempting to pass by Gorges du Tarn – a long-desired itinerary.  Now waiting for dinner herein Asprières – served in a spacious hall/dining room as part of inclusive price: 440FF for two, bed and board.  Pity bathroom separate – and no key on the bedroom door…

25.6.94 Blois

Amazingly, it is cloudy – good for travelling – and raining, less good.  I over-indulged in the cheap local wine last night, but try to console myself that it was worse for Sri Lanka's Giardia than for me…

Going back to yesterday's drive, the Gorges du Tarn begins as a fine stream between high cliffs – very Lake District – but soon deepens and broadens into a wider meandering stream in a huge canyon.  Reminds me of the river gorge into Kashmir – only smaller.  Weather was stunning – and almost no traffic, which I think is probably totally extraordinary.  In fact, there was only one time where we were stuck behind a bloody camper van.  Fine place just after the optional ascent into the hills – bridge and small village to the left – looked idyllic with its church.  People canoeing everywhere.  

One thing in Provence: saw an ad in Provencal: "Dieu soup com el es buon" or something…  Elsewhere, lots of shops in Provencal – not to mention all the "mas" – "farmstead".  

Blois – 19 ans plus tard.  In the Villa Médicis, Saint-Denis-sur-Loire.  A real château, though a kind of youth hostel atmosphere prevails – no locks on the doors.  Aperitifs before dinner: three yanks, two French as fellow guests.  Tchaikovsky's "Swan Lake" in the background.  The place is full of charming touches plus evidence of on-the-line compromises – the peeling paint, the bubbling wallpaper.  But prints, pix, porcelain around the place.  And yet nearby, rather tacky semi-suburbia.  

French motorways – well made, but so full of curves – at this time of year, well-nigh empty – one car per kilometre.  About 500km today, starting in the luscious, rolling Valley of the Lot, passing through the Auvergne (ditto), then up to the rather dull Massif Central.  But definitely a place to return to in the south.

26.6.94 Honfleur

Cool but not unpleasant.  The thing about driving up from the south: you notice how the average car number plate increases – like an index of where you are.  

Honfleur (hi, Erik), eating chocolate waffle (impossible).  Very busy, but picturesque.  Long time since I was last here (six, seven years?) and then only passing through…

27.6.94 Cabourg

Yesterday was a day to forget: all the way up here for rather unsatisfactory gîtes, then lousy food (and sad, too: the young waitress trying so hard…)  We have to drive to breakfast...slept nearly ten hours – this driving takes it out of you.  

Street talk: the French plaster their streets with signs – in red, blue, green, yellow, white, plus a profusion of standing signs – many warning you that there exist other signs to come. French rationalism I suppose.  On Saturday, French cops everywhere with radar guns, or just standing, menacingly, by the side of the road… Only 50 km/h in the towns.  Normandy quite English-looking – the half-timbered (brown and white) houses.  Villages dead yesterday, very weird.  To get here, just outside Honfleur, we followed this crazy woman from the main house, through tiny lanes, past a bloody caravan camp, to this place in the middle of nowhere.

Cabourgciao.  Room 217 in Proust's hotel – fine view from the balcony onto the grey, cold sea.  Ah, well.  Good to be back – even at 700FF a night.  Eating now on the promenade Marcel Proust – for 40FF, bun and coffee.  Passing along the coast, all the 'villes, I think of the little train.  Cabourg itself rather tackier than I remember.  And I can't find "Actuel" anywhere…

To Dives, and the church of Notre-Dame.  Plenty of Gilberts in the list of knights with William – but no sign of Proust's Persian church – was this it?  Or was it fabrication/elsewhere?  Dives rather strange: old/new, without a real centre – between Cabourg and Houlgate.  Re-looking at the west door of the church, it could be the one…  Interesting: the names of the knights – about 40 Rogers (Hrothgar), and 50 Raoul (Hralfr), good Viking names.  And the strange name Wadard, and Tovstain = Tofstein.  To think that England's history took a huge turn from here...and now look at the place.

Exquisite meal as ever in the hotel's dining room, (though the Proust-like maître d' seems to have gone).  Now slightly drunk on our balcony facing the sea: sun (at 9.30pm) low and golden, approaching a distant sea (the sands at low tide so broad).  Rivulets silver on the sands as they run down.  Grey ghosts of ships on the horizon (where we will be tomorrow).  Strange – and also perfect really…  I wonder what will happen when the money runs out?  Cabourg, a name to conjure with.  The sun setting in fine Ra-style, sets fire to something far out to the east…

10.15pm – the fire goes out…

28.6.94  Cabourg

In Proust's dining room along the beach (though since modified).  Stunning morning.  Eating our madeleine and figs...

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Friday, 15 May 2020

1990 Egypt IV: Alexandria, Wadi El Natrun, Suez

6.3.90 Alexandria

Up to look at the grey-green sea from my balcony.  Too early for breakfast: so I start on "Balthazar" – the perfect way to begin an Alexandrian day…  Breakfast is served in a small room off the main dining room, the same white, the same classical frieze, the high-backed chairs with their woven patterns.

A walk along the corniche west out to the fort, beside which I sit – gleaming white stone.  It is sunny, with a soft blue sky, fringed by a few clouds – typical: I have put on my trusty vest, a t-shirt, checked shift, New Zealand pullover and jacket, and so now I am too hot… Lovely stiff breeze off the see: smells so clean – I must learn to sail this year… On the way here the concrete squares of the pavement show clearly where the sea habitually leaps the barrier: the gravel shows through as the binding is eaten away…  An image from yesterday: as we pull out of Ramses Station, a man urinating against a wall.  It reminds me of Canaletto's boy peeing against the Rialto bridge.  It is good to smell and hear the sea again: my island roots betray themselves.  

Along the corniche, the houses fronting the sea look very French, very Côte d'Azur, very (but how do I know?) Beirut before it became urban hell.  Into the fort – a wonderful decrepit naval museum.  Best thing is the sound of the wind whistling through the halls – just as it did in the Pharos… To Pastroudi's – an upmarket version of Groppi's.  For some reason I sit outside under the awnings – even though it is thundering, with sporadic rain.  Also, I am deafened by the bleedin' car horns passing.

Alexander does feel different.  I keep wanting to speak Greek – I've seen one taverna elleniko already – along with a wonderful sign – for a doctor, presumably - offering "skin, VD and sex"…  Sounds very Durrell.  The which I shall read, appropriately enough.  The sun has come out – and fortuitously I catch it between the awnings.  Yellow and black, and orange and black taxis go by like huge wasps and bees, but for me their sting is in their horn.  You can tell this is a commercial city by the ratio of cabs to private cars [damn these horns – they are like bloody children: one one starts, they all join in.  I preferred it in Ligeti's opera.]

At least Durrell has told me what the ubiquitous clover-like fodder is called – confirmed by the encyclopedic Blue Guide.  "Birsim/bercim" – aptly enough, Trifolium alexandrinum. I forgot to mention the huge conical piles of fruit near my hotel: two feet high of blood-red strawberries, oranges, impossible vertiginous shapes.

I have just eaten at Al Ekhlaas – very upmarket, very nice fish – excellent tehina and baba ghanoush.  The room done out in Moorish style: perforated brass chandeliers, with extraordinary glass lamps – looking like enormous blue condoms, teat and all.  Place practically deserted, even though it is 2pm – Alexandrians eat late.  Interesting weather: sun, rain, clouds, wind – but the dust is my enemy, and reduces me to tears of blindness.

In a way, Alexandria is the New York of Egypt: a frenetic, cosmopolitan melting pot.  There is a style of schmaltzy music that belongs to the 60s and the Pink Panther/Euro chic ambience, long lost.  It was an era when playboys and their belles were 30-45 years old, and Europe was the height of chic.  Could it come again?  As the baby boomers age to 30-45, so Europe could again be fashionable – the spas, the old capitals of Eastern Europe.  Perhaps the music will return too.  Even I find an insidious charm in its sheer naiveté.

Dropped off by the taxi at Pompey's Pillar, I walk to Kom el Shoqafa – through very dodgy streets – they remind me of the backstreets of Palermo.  Real poverty.  Sheep tethered in the streets – general feel like Kathmandu.  Now I sit in the banqueting hall of the catacombs – c-razy.  Celebrating the dead with a meal.  Name means "Mound of Shards", from the potsherds left over from the banquets.  

In the Caracalla Hall: the young men said to be killed in revenge for an insult offered by them to the emperor in 215 AD.  Lovely friable sandstone, with strata at 45 degrees.  Easy to get lost… The stacked burial chambers like a huge honeycomb.  To the side of the main chapel – long gallery of honeycombs – with planks across the water like Venice in flood: does Peter Greenaway know about this place…?  Very precarious walking along these long planks – they bend so… it is like walking over the Styx.  The silence is heavy, thick, claustrophobic.  This mania for burial everywhere in Egypt, of hiding the dead.  Walking stooped, the planks thudding as they rise and fall on the stones supporting them.

The main tomb quite crude – Greek and Egyptian elements, from behind, an eerie cool breeze.  Crude Hathors, Horus – like maskers dressed up for a ball.  Thoth looking like a toucan…  And dressed in Roman soldier's garb.  Turning around, yes, there are the ridiculous figures: Sabek and Anubis, holding spears, dressed as Roman soldiers, looking across the entrance to each other like some erstwhile Morecambe and Wise double-act.

Outside here, two other ghoulish statues, one a woman, one a curly-headed man with a furrowed brow and a Messerschmidt-like stare… I am quite alone here, the only sound the scratching of my failing pen across the paper as I awkwardly write standing up…

Back to Pompey's Pillar – large, and largely pointless.  A couple of sphinxes, a few bits of rubble: it sums up Alexandria's attitude really… Real souk near here – lots of sunshades – just like Canaletto's Venice.  As I learn a little more Arabic – a word here, a word there – I become conscious of the expansion of my empire.  But language is an ambivalent tool: it is that of obedience as well as command.

Out for a walk in the dusk.  Fine evening – but for the wind, easterly now, and its attendant dust.  Lots of anglers along the coast – I always worry about the fly-back of their hooks in such circumstances.  I walk east, turn, then back past the Cecil.  Eastwards there are numerous forlorn-looking restaurants; westwards, forlorn-looking hotels; perhaps it all bucks up in summer.  Now it has that pleasantly elegiac out-of-season feeling.  For no reason, I think of America, and its lack of comprehension of this kind of charming seediness.

Past the war memorial, inland towards Tahrir Square.  I have no map, but follow my feet and nose.  I pass along bustling streets, wares brightly lit as ever.  Some stalls a few pieces of sweetmeats, for a few piastres.  How do they survive?  And who are all these men in the cafés by day – what job do they do?

Ah, the muezzin again.  Back in the dining room.  Another full bottle of wine tonight – this time, a red: "Omar Khayyam".  Rather nice.  It seems appropriate to Alexandria and its hedonism.  Omar slightly watery – I have drunk five glasses so far

7.3.90 Alexandria

I am beginning to lose track of the days.  After breakfast, out along the corniche, west again to Al Silsileh.  The clouds of dawn had cleared, leaving a huge blue dome.  The fort looked attractive around the harbour.  I have booked a taxi – for which I wait in the Metropole – to go out to Wadi El Natrun: E£90.  Probably a rip-off, but it is hard to get worked up over £10 – the wrong attitude, I know.  

I feel like Proust with his driver – well, in some respects – touring Normandy.  Talking of Proust, it is interesting to compare him with Durrell since both are obsessed with love.  Where Proust takes a few key incidents and pores over them in infinite detail, building towards a coherent whole, Durrell seems content to pile on more details, more incidents, unworried by the contradictions or opacities.  This is the thing about Proust: his striving for clarity, even – and hence – in his long, snaking sentences.  They also differ from James's endlessly nested clauses, the product of a profoundly cautious man.  His costiveness is a beautiful emblem of his art.

Opposite me, at the Strand Cinema, a garish poster for "RoboForce".  Robocop, I presume.  Last night, I saw several women in full veils, with only slits for the eyes.  They looked like mummies or victims of terrible accidents.  It sent a chill through me to meet them like this, so unexpectedly, in Alexandria of all places.  Passing a shop last night, an image of a women with a tube of lipstick in her mouth, pointing outwards its great red bud.  Surely an image impossible in the Freudianised West?

A stunningly attractive woman passes the window; but her pullover has tassels – two over her nipples: she has obviously never watched "The Graduate".  She walks along with sublime innocence.  An albino youth – tight curly white hair, bright pink skin – enters the hotel and takes the lift, a being from another planet.  The receptionist in her little cubicle constantly repeats: "Hallo, aiwa, aiwa…"

We soon leave Alexandria behind, then cross Lake Mariout, surrounded by reeds and glistening water.  Looks like East Anglia, Snape.  Newspaper sellers in the middle of the road – but amidst roaring traffic.  (NL), (S) and even (B) – upside down – (CH) nationality stickers on cars.  Two wrecked cars in the middle of the road in the last ten minutes.  The sea to my right has a puce tinge – pollution presumably.  A dovecot like a huge clay pepper pot.  The main Alexandria-Cairo road. For the first time, I see traffic cops pulling someone in for speeding – the maximum for cars is 100 km/h.  In Asyut, there was the body of a man by the railway track.  Onlookers gawped.  Rather dull landscape, very flat, scrubby bushes, trees, odd village, a factory.  Greenery half-hearted.  Long, straight road.  Real desert now, distant hills to the west.  After 90 minutes and 100 kilometres.  Wadi El Natrun is dusty and barren.  Some of the water seems to show the salt.

To Anba Bishoy Monastery.  147 monks, 22 novices according to the monk who has been explaining things to me, dressed in black, with an embroidered head covering.  Alas, no Coptic manuscripts – he gently suggested there might be some in Britain…  Some painting by the door – 1977, done by bloke from Cairo.  Small, enclosed feel.  Twelfth-century keep, entered via drawbridge – the bleached and worn pulley still over the door.  [Apparently Coptic is still spoken in some parts of Upper Egypt – near Qena, the man said.]  The paintings had Greek characters, but it was Coptic.  Next to the keep, the steeple (modern) and done with curious quintuple crosses – joined at base to form a pyramid of them.  

Inside the main church, after removing shoes – to walk on rush mats or carpets.  A beautifully simple interior, unadorned plaster walls, barrel vaulting.  Wonderful old chandeliers, like something out of an old country house.  Arabic graffiti scratched on the walls.  Old wooden pulpit, worm-eaten.  A simple hanging beneath it.  To the main sanctuary with its iconostasis – the 12 apostles and others.  Crude light bulbs on the wooden cross above.  The body (covered) of Bishoy.  From behind, the separating curtain a strange sound: they are vacuum-cleaning the main sanctuary.  They offer visitors tea… No charge, but a donation…  

To the Syrian Monastery – shut from 12noon to 3pm – because stricter here.  Goats scrabbling around salty water – like Hunt's "The Scapegoat".  Turn off is near the new Sadat City, for Monastery of Saint Macarius the Great.  Long, straight road – looks like an army camp of citadel – big.  Closed until Easter.  I am sitting in the gatehouse, on beautiful blue chairs – with light-blue painted wooden arms – the rest house.  An aircraft roars noisily overhead.  Flies are everywhere.  Cloudy sky, air quite cool.  I eat the monks' bitter bread, and drink their tea (Ceylon) – a secular Eucharist.  Also I am given a phial of holy oil...but I notice that it is in a Bayer tube…

This reminds me of Lake Dal.

The monk would accept no money.  I've realised what the driving here reminds me of – with no signalling, overtaking left and right: go-kart racing, with similar tolerances for error.  

Back in Alexandria, I rush to the bookshop – only to find it closed.  And I notice that it is built over the position of the tomb of Alexander himself – the Soma.  I sit now in the Roman amphitheatre – small but reasonably perfectly-formed.  Reminds me of Epidaurus.  Egyptian – and Indian – cinema posters are in a time warp: their heroes are in their 40s, and the heroines are ladies of ample charms in their 30s – really 1960s stuff.  Pink Panther again.  The trouble with the sea here is that it just sort of happens: corniche then harbour.  No use is made of it as in English seaside towns.  Even the seats are placed between the road carriageways.  A glorious afternoon – sky nearly clear, the odd cloud galleon, air fresh.

Along to the Cecil for tea.  What a waste of space.  I sat there for 15 minutes – nothing; I left.  Interestingly, so did two other visitors – young ladies there for pretty much the same reason as me, I would hazard.  So to my trusty Metropole instead, watching from my window seat.  

In opening and closing the high windows and shutters on to my balcony, there is that characteristic bang of wood and glass, followed by the squeak as the rods turn and the fastening hook engages.

It is very strange: I find it hard to connect now, being here in Alexandria, with my time in Upper Egypt; it is as if the latter were a previous, unrelated trip.  And this is how I hoped it would fall out – the different Egypts subtly but hermetically separated.

It is an interesting experience reading Durrell here and in such concentration – I have just finished "Balthazar".  He becomes almost oppressive with Darley's constant whinings and whimperings about "Love" and "Truth"; but the fluency of the writing impresses.  It is a warning to me perhaps: against such archetypally "fine" writing, the striking image, the calculated metaphor. 

Do the bobbles of wool that come off a jumper have an official name?

Curious: there is an aerial lead lying dead on the floor of my room, its wire vanishing out through the door; what happened to the TVs – referred to by old von Haag?  Outside, a maid or attendant passes by in a splendid jingle of Keys (why the cap?  - "The Keys"…)  At the catacombs yesterday, some chappie asked me my profession: "writer" I said without thinking.  I wonder… Perhaps Alexandria - and Durrell – are affecting me in this.

To dinner.  I shall never be able to hear King Lear's "If she must teem, Create her child of spleen" without thinking of the local 7-up substitute "Teem" – and of Egypt.  Another effect of Durrell: I have been thinking about my friends a lot, and looking forward to seeing them.  Egypt has taught me one thing for sure: the indelible, terrifying stupidity of flies – they learn nothing – no matter how many times you flick them off, they return, indefatigable.

8.3.90 Alexandria

Even early in the morning, there are the horns.  Their timbres and chords vary enormously.  Some sound like samples: for example, I have heard the final chord of Prince's "The Cross", as well as the stabbing chord in Janet Jackson's "What have you done for me lately?"  Again, I woke with a very present sense of the books to write in the next couple of years.

It is noticeable that no two people ever eat a boiled egg in the same way.

A dull, overcast morning.  As the corniche sweeps round to the fortress it is swathed in a blurring mist.  Quite attractive really.  In the building opposite, hitherto apparently dead, a woman hangs out her smalls.  Last night, after dinner, I took a long stroll through the streets.  Half of Alexandria seemed to be out, taking their passeggiata.  It felt quite festive.  To the Museum of Antiquities today.  The contrasts in weather here have been useful too in sealing it off from the rest of my Egyptian experiences.  I feel that travelling is something you learn and improve at by practice: I feel Egypt is my first Dan…  It is amazing the number of buildings here that are based Venetian palazzi in style.

What a palaver.  I am losing my wonted composure.  Primo: changing money.  To the Bank of Alexandria, opposite the hotel – normally OK; but not this time: I must go to the main branch.  Which I do – like something out of the 1930s, clerks everywhere, ledgers ditto.  I must go upstairs.  First to one window, then to another.  Finally, for some reason best known to themselves, I must go to yet another branch.  Which I do.  To the ground floor, then upstairs.  Finally someone changes the bleedin' money.

Secondo: I go along to the bookshop.  It is closed, but two men turn up and begin unlocking it, smiling at me.  First they take off the restraining bar, then the padlock, then unbolt the door – perhaps the Soma is here.  Then one man enters, takes a package, and starts to lock up again.  I remonstrate.  They mutter some Arabic at me: "closed".  They are still smiling as the walk off.  Bastards.  No bleedin' book, obviously.  

Terzo: to the Graeco-Roman Museum, a classical facade painted a vague sort of Pompeiian colour.  The swines won't let me take my bag with me – I have to carry all my junk.  Swines twice over.  I am not in a good mood.

The museum itself is pleasant enough – at first glance, any way.  I feel immediately at home amidst these herms and torsos.  6: the Aris bull – very impressive.  Serapis – a factitious god, made to consolidate an empire.  7: usurped (ha!) figure by Ramses II – the Moses connection is interesting – on the sceptre the Princess Hut-ma-ra – supposedly she found Moses.  NB: for the Egyptians, the Israelites were just another minor tribe.  But the Old Testament -through Judaism, Christianity and Islam - has shaped the world.  8: a horrible Ptolemaic coffin, grinning like something out of Lewis Carroll, a Pharaonic Tweedle-dum.  Eerie plaster masks placed over Romans.  Roman soldier's mummy – thick swaddling – but the toes peek out as if from a plaster cast.  Very elaborate diamond criss-cross swaddling.

10: eerie X-ray of dwarf's mummy.  Mummy of a baby – with weird miniature adult mask.  12: some odd but striking heads: Ptolemy VI – noseless, with hollow, melancholy eyes, his crown like a jar of water balanced on his head…  Fine anonymous bearded head – the striations in the rock are picked up in the seep of the beard and in the leftward lines; he looks like a wanderer, out in the storm, enduring.  I would like to nick this… Strange crumbling statue – Egyptian posture - of Ptolemy I – a surprised old man.

16: strange, detached forearm with ball, rising up like the Lady of the Lake with Excalibur.  16A: figure of Berenice and daughter – looking like a Henry Moore seated figure, the limestone beautifully craggy.  17: glorious piece of porphyry, smouldering like a dull, red-hot coal.  It looks as if it is liquefying.  I would like also this.  Some of the exhibits here are wrapped in the typical plastic of restoration.  Reminds me of Venice for some reason.

18A: a huge concrete repaired rent in the wall looks like the map of Italy.  Lovely statuette  of actor with tragic mask – a big nose like Mr Punch.  Amazing collection of female heads show wide range of ancient hairstyles. Some look very 18th-century.  It would be interesting (slightly) to chart the recurring cycles of hairstyles through history.  20: God Bes – of "fun" – who became god of war – ho-hum.  Two flutes made of bone: re-construct them?  Memories of the Getty…  Treasure Room: a sad and hangdog figure, big nose and fat neck.  The coins displayed in vertically swivelling cases.  Lovely silver torso of Venus – very sensual, very callipygous…

5: clay sarcophagi like huge pairs of shoes.  Christian stuff - so crude.  A mummy with a black cross at the neck.  Obscene relief of Leda and the swan – it looks as if she has a giant goldfish between her legs.  Above, another one – with the swan pecking her nipple while she holds an egg…  The god Bes – looking like an alien. The garden is quite pleasant in a jumbled soft of way – reminds me of the scene in "Belly of an Architect".  And that is that.  

Bleedin' bookshop definitely closed.  Back to Pastroudi's – coffee and cakes – what the hell.  The sky clearing; hot.  The cakes are lethal; plastic cream unfortunately.  One, a rum baba kind of affair, was good; the chocolate cake far too sickly.  A man with a barrow-load of ice has passed, each pillar with a curious cross-section of diagonals.

There are noticeably more beggars here than elsewhere, especially cripples, just lying prone and helplessly.  Also a boy the other day, with no legs, scooting around on a cart.  Straight out of Breughel.  At the next table, a late middle-aged man, wearing characteristically dusty brown pinstripes; his right hand wears a black glove.  Pastroudi's is quite full out here now; Thursday, the day before the Muslims' Friday.

Just down from where I sit, a building split in two at ground level – one a shop named only in Arabic – and hence a mystery to me – the other three curtained-off windows.  Between, the sad remains of a pediment and ornate ironwork canopy.  The entrance is crudely bricked up, brown-black.  At the level of the pediment, to the left, the triglyphs remain; to the right, above the be-Arabicked awnings, concrete and grills.  Above both of these, stretching right across the whole facade, is a row of classical balustrades.  Once they fronted balconies.  Now they give onto a roof, doubtless piled with Egyptian debris, as I saw in Cairo.  Between the balustrades are truncated round Doric pillars with simple bases.  There are also four square pilasters, with more Corinthian capitals.  Behind ruined walls, their scratched and grey faces like excavated frescoes of an ancient Roman palace.

A car horn quotes from Walton's first symphony – the first movement.  I have been reading here at Pastroudi's for over an hour, watching the sky clear and cloud, reading about Mountolive.  What could be more civilised?  Did Byron ever visit Alexandria?  I feel he should have done.  I must re-read "Don Juan" – and get to know the letters.

Yesterday, from my windowed eyrie at the Metropole, I watched as a young man's gazed swivelled, spellbound, to follow the passage of a moderately-attractive young woman.  

The more I use von Haag's book, the more I like it.  I realise now that most guide books – even Lonely Planet – are too "objective" and impersonal.  What you want is a kind of hyper-Lorenzetti crammed a diary of travel.  You want the facts coupled with a personalisation of everything – a judgement that allow you to relate to the objects in a way that a "pure" comprehensive guidebook cannot.

Anyway, following von Haag, I sit in the Mustafa Darwish restaurant on the corniche. Not touristy – at least, not for Westerners – but they are where in Alexandria?  No English menu.  Also – the first time I've seen it – waitresses.  Quite smart inside, if slight gaudy.  Egyptian music just about winning against the traffic thundering by outside – and von Haag says sit outside, if nice…  Hilarious plastic gladioli on the table, sick yellow and candy-floss pink.  The head waitress has pantomimically heavy eye make-up – pink and blue, like war paint.

An amazing meal – god knows what it will do to my guts.  First, a real vegetable soup.  Then: tehinababa ghanoush, tomato and onion, potatoes, beetroot, olives and peppers for salads, fish – a kind of trout, grilled with curry, rice with kidneys, a thin meat pasty, and chips.  Sybaritic?  Me?  Tempted as I am by the fruit concoction, I shall be wise.  Fish brilliant; tehina addictive; rest good.  And so to coffee...and to "Mountolive".  Coffee nutty and not too sweet or aromatic.  Served in one of this little white cups and saucers – whose topology is odd in that the handle is blind, with no hole, but solid and filled in.

The other day I saw Stravinsky walking down the street, slowly, as frog-like as ever, dressed dapperly in a waistcoat and hat – not bad for his age – 100 odd?  Alexandria seems filled with such cosmopolitans, traders from Smyrna, Sevastopol, old sea captains from Piraeus.  Opposite me now is an old man, quite corpulent, smoking languorously, with a younger woman (50-ish), imperious in his orders to the waitress ("aiwa?" she answers quickly to his call).  Meanwhile, the same female singer swoops and keens her augmented seconds…

Durrell's book – especially in "Mountolive" – does emphasise the extraordinary position of the Copts in Egypt – the true heirs, the Welsh, those who remained true to their heritage; whereas the Arab-speaking Muslims are the English, the invaders, those who have compromised with the imperialists…

A long walk three-quarters of the way around the corniche to the fort.  I sit now just west of the mosque on the first seat by the sea – how poorly the Alexandrians use the sea front.  Why seats here?  True, the view is splendid: fort 90 degrees to my left, with the fleet of fishing boats in front.  From in front of me to the right, the coast of Alexandria – my hotel neatly at 135 degrees, and in the sun.  The sun lowers and catches the sterns – mostly green – of the boats.  Gulls circle overhead.  Just over the promenade walk (low), what looks like bleached ribs of an old boat.  Plus litter – everywhere.  Old car tyres lie at the sea's margin like mutant jellyfish.  The wind is getting up, pulling waves off the surface of the sea like tufts of hair.  The wind and its bad friend, dust: my enemies, the evil spirits that will drive me from Alexandria.  I must have the only pair of contact lenses in the city.

The naval fort like a fairy-tale castle, crenellated, glinting white.  Youth always takes to the new if only because there at least it is on equal terms with maturity.  The city front like superior corrugated cardboard.  Men standing in their boats as if to attention, waiting for the admiral's review.  

I must get a copy of "A Partial India" bound when I do "The Weekly Essay" – both as presents to myself.  The sky is clearing beautifully – the clouds being pulled back to the south like a curtain.  Another Balinese revelation: there I understood the International Dateline; now I see why the Mediterranean has no high or low tides – even though it is as big as an ocean.  Because it is closed.

A brisk walk back to the hotel, they sky tinged with orange.  6 o'clock strikes; I have just paid the bill of E£230 for four nights, including three dinners, and laundry.  Pretty good.  I now sit in my world-watching seat, hoping for a tea, about to plunge back into an older Alexandria.  

A curious experience.  One delight I have been looking forward to in re-reading "The Alexandria Quartet" was coming cross the word "nacreous" again – it was here that I first encountered it.  Being on page 496, and not finding it yet, I flipped back to the beginning, half-convinced it was there.  No luck.  So I continue with my reading.  Literally seven worlds later, there it is – ha!  Another car-horn tune: the Smiths' "The Queen is dead"

To the dining room for the last time – first there again.  Freesias on the table.  I smell them – the smell of childhood for some reason…  Most of us build empires – through marriage, family, friends, work, etc.  Perhaps writers and artists are the most megalomaniacal: they seek to colonise the hearts and minds of millions.  Writing style might be characterised as wet or dry.  Wet styles can be squeezed drier; dry styles fit words together like stones of the Great Pyramid: not even a knife could slip between them.  Durrell is very wet; guess which I would like to be?

Although many poets have painted, and vice versa, there have been very few painter-musicians.  Mendelssohn, Schönberg are the only two that spring to mind.

The bubbling smile and happiness of the Coptic monks…

The sight of big, butch men holding hands in the street like four-year-olds… 

9.3.90 Alexandria

As I come down to breakfast for the last time here, a wonderfully steaming smell of youth hostels.  I begin to tire of Durrell.  I don't really care any more about the perennially-deceitful Hosnani et al.  "The Alexandria Quartet" is perhaps too long, or needed to be read over years as it came out.

In the 7.50am train to Cairo, waiting… I thought I had a seat in the non-smoking car...it appears not.  Perhaps that is the quintessential smell of Egypt: cheap cigarettes.  Everybody smokes.  And while many other countries have many smokers, they seem to have other, masking odours.  Egypt is oddly odourless: no woodsmoke of India, no wet vegetation of Bali, no leather of Spain; just stale, choking cigarettes.

The Egyptians seem to smile quite readily – the women at least.  Smiling is a bit like letting people in front of you when driving: it tends to propagate.  Those to whom you do it seem more likely to do it to others.  I suppose it is a measure of my optimism in people that I believe that the world may one day go smile-critical.  

It is clear to me that I am not really interested at the moment in fiction, even in a novel: instead I simply want to re-work and preserve certain thoughts and experiences.  It is why I never (almost) lie: I lack the imagination.  "Mountolive" finished.  It is definitely the great set pieces – the fish hunt, the scene at the monastery, the mourning of Narouz – that excel.  The ruminations are over-fine – the writing too "wet" – though luxurious as you read it.  It is all too exotic: you get the feeling that Durrell needed Egypt, the Greek islands, for his ideas.  Of England he can say nothing.

On the outskirts of Cairo, we pass four huge industrial chimneys to the right.  Each has two vibrant white lights – for aircraft, I presume – flashing, but synchronously – a huge 4x2 grid blipping menacingly.  Hypnotic.

Well, what larks – and it's still only 3.30pm (I should be at the fête at the embassy, I know, but well…)  Back in Cairo, which feels reassuringly familiar.  Arguing with the taxis as ever – I get one, only to have him pile in two Germans.  I remonstrate at length, demand a price reduction, threaten to leave.  He gives in.  The Germans admire – was I there on business? they ask.  Strange, Cairo seems saner compared to Alexandria's traffic.  To the old Cosmo.  I march in, announce my reservation for two nights; they check: one night.  I look, and can see that they have changed visibly the two to one; bastards.  But no point arguing.  They say (as ever) that they'll "try" tomorrow – but I've had enough of that.

So, off round the hotels.  As it happens, I wanted to go to the Ramses Hilton to ask about "Fifi" – the which I felt right daft doing, furtive even.  Eventually it transpired that old "Fifi" – apparently the best belly in the business – is at the Marriott.  I also ask if the Ramses has a room for tomorrow – the hotel looks like a huge granary silo, but I was seduced by the name.  They had.  So I could always come here.  

To the Marriott – some way away on Zamalek island.  What was once a moorish palace, expanded into a huge maroon prison.  I go there; "Fifi" is indeed around.  I ask about rooms: no go.  Once again, I feel really daft asking for what sounds like a poodle. I need to find the restaurant to reserve a table.  I saunter along and notice a bookshop – I had already looked in the ones in Midan Talaat Harb for That Book; no luck.  I thought I might as well look here..  They have it – but E£30 more at E£95.  But I do not make the same mistake twice, and snap it up.  So some good comes from a bad situation.

But I still need a hotel.  Back to the Ramses Hilton to reserve.  But when I do, the buggers discover that they're full.  Pah.  To the Shepheard Hotel, along the river: full.  To the Semiramis next door: a room – they say -  but at $130, it's a bit different from the Cosmo's $30.  But I need it, and take it.  I look around: it is rather flash – swimming pool etc. - and quite a tolerable gym, open 7am to 9pm.  So, admittedly rather expensively, I shall be getting some unexpected exercise tomorrow.

If I can walk.  For back to today.  I had set my heart – certainly not my brain – on a gallop around the pyramids.  God knows why.  And indeed, as I drove out there, I felt an appalling sinking feeling, a foreboding.  Things were not made better when, having spotted the great shapes moving in and out of the blocks of flats, close-up I saw two people descend Khufu's: damn.

My driver – a great big thug of a bloke, but an amazingly calm and unflusterable driver – got a ticket for the car to go in too, and we went round to near the boat of Ra, where the horses gather.  We soon found some, good-looking animals, and agreed E£15-20 – to be decided later – for an hour's tour including gallops.  Oh poor fool…

Mounting the horse, my guide immediately zoomed off over rocks and sand and stones.  I kicked my beast, but to little effect.  Cries from behind got it going, and I knew I was in serious trouble.  Straight away my shoe slipped forward, and the stirrup caught behind the shoe's tongue – a lethal situation. Also, the horse was not responding to the usual aids.  Things were not helped by the necessity of me holding on to the loop around its neck.  Apparently, to get it going, you put the reins forward – giving it its head – while squeezing behind.  

My main problem was the sheer dangerousness of my whole stance.  As we thundered along, I could not use the reins properly since I was holding them in one hand.  So I left the horse to its own devices – and it promptly headed for the rocks and stones and god knows what.  I meanwhile was jerking all over the place, made worse by the horse's path.  I visualised very clearly falling off, with my foot irremediably caught in the stirrup, dragged along at a gallop over the stones.  All I could do was repeat to myself "I'm going to die, I'm going to die…" What little I saw of the landscape was magnificent: with the great sand dunes, the sand plains, and the unforgettable presence of the pyramids.  But these were not my main concern. 

I survived about 30 minutes of this, with three totally crazy gallops.  I was almost relieved when my guide started taking me towards his perfume-maker friend.  I was glad to be alive, and just wanted to get off the horse for a bit.  But I was faced with a dilemma: the last thing I wanted was perfume, but I could hardly cheese off the only thing between me and certain death… What to do?  

[A shower, then a long read of "Clea", which is winding the book down nicely.  I needed the rest: my head is thrumming still, my thighs are seizing up slowly.  Afterwards, a walk to the Nile – how magic that word is still – across the bridge, then back to the hotel, then to here.  Where?  Felfela's, of course, my penultimate night's treat…]

So, to the parfumier.  His warm-up man insists – "no refusal" – I have a drink; I am too exhausted to argue.  Hot tea seems safest.  Then through to the innermost sanctuary for a "demo".  Good patter, but I am not buying.  Fortunately, I am wise to the ways of salesmen: I just act stupid, refuse everything, give them no purchase – if you do, you are done for.

I exit therefore as gracefully as I can.  To horse – with trepidation.  But bliss: we go by backstreets to the Sphinx – it's over – I'm alive.  To hell with being ripped off (he wanted baksheesh – but I was inclined to give it to him not just to propitiate his/Egypt's gods, but also because he showed a real – as I imagine it – Arabic fire and pride, à la Omar Sharif in That Film).

But to backtrack.  My feelings were very strange.  I was clearly afraid – very afraid – and yet there was none of the normal physical symptoms in the guts, bowels, heart.  Instead, my body was perfectly calm.  And my mind was perfectly clear: I could see my death so close.  But it is like being about to vomit: you either decide to, or you don't; and on this occasion I was able to refuse death's offer by not quite falling off.  I suppose too I felt an elation – physical – in the mad gallop across the ancient sands – and mental – the stupid sense of daring to do this, of not chickening out…

Talking of chickening out, the chicken livers were fantastic.  I also treated myself to tehinababa ghanoush, nice and – inevitably – the om ali, which did not disappoint.  The place is fair old a-buzz now – certainly the best value I've had in Egypt from all points of view.  And good atmosphere.

It is also interesting to note how my pride operated through my horse-riding incident.  My optimistic and wildly-inflated notion of flying through the desert, the cruel reality – always at its worst in terms of my incompetence when other westerners were around.  And my pride forced me on, refused to let me crawl away in defeat.  The Egyptian must have loved it – he made little effort to help – or even stay behind, racing away, leaving a spume of dust – another obstacle for me to avoid.  He was also cruel to his animal – beating it not only about the flanks, but around the head and eyes too…

But very interesting, that sense of just clinging on – literally, and metaphorically.  A turkish coffee now to finish.

10.3.90 Cairo

You go away for a couple of weeks, and everything changes – breakfast served in the dining room… In the car to Suez - E£90.  The Koran sung achingly on a tone, the smell of petrol, driving through the outskirts of the city.  Desmond Hogan is Durrell gone mad – the ultimate wet style.  We have picked up a squaddie – which annoys me – and that I am annoyed is even more annoying…

After endless suburbs, the desert – lots of army camps.  Nothing very attractive.  But I can see why three monotheistic religions arose in the desert.  With no animals, nothing, man is turned back on himself – to an anthropomorphic god… Near Suez, fine mountains to the south, great barren folds of brown.  Hazy now, clouds coming in from the east.  Closer, oil refineries – their flames like great Bunsen burners.  

There is a corniche of sorts – except that it fronts onto what looks like a flattened rubbish tip.  Nice hazy view of mountains to the south, and of Port Tawfik.  And three Israeli tanks, stuck as souvenirs of war.  Strange to see bent tanks, three of them, sitting on the promenade.  Suez itself pretty ugly – concrete, much building.  Dusty, fly blown.  [Engineering office: "for erection and general contraction".] 

Port Tawfik, to the end: good view of ships emerging from the Suez Canal, and of the mountains.  Cairo about 130 km away.  More tanks in Tawfik, and on the road back to Cairo, a troop carrier – the detritus of war.  Amazing image: a tip-up lorry full of bitumen – alight – being fed with petrol. Great sheets of flame.  Another memorial: two tanks – and that image of Ramses II.  

Altogether, a very interesting failure.  I wanted (he says, back at the Hotel Semiramis) to see the ships passing like camels of the desert (think about it).  Instead, they were no more than distant images.  But even as I tried to persuade my driver to go nearer the canal – which he did not understand, and when he did, and I had suggested going up to the tunnel under the canal, he refused as being too far away – I realised that this was the apt ending, that nature was already creating art. 

As my bath runs after a massage here at the hotel, a glorious sunset for my farewell – Re himself.  Not just the red globe, but the full array of pinks, purples, greys, even nacreous hues.  A few light clouds are empurpled by it, the sky shades away to the blue, bled into by pink.  The sun is swathed in growing clouds now – Osiris-like - and falling exactly between two skyscrapers.  The Nile a sheet of light blue steel.

So, where did I get to?  I sit now, after dinner, facing the same view as above, but it appears now as a christmas tree of orange lights.  No lunch – only some tea up here – after all, I put on weight based on the premise I would lose it willy-nilly.  But (happily) this ain't happened, so I need to knock off a few pounds.  Then down by the pool – I may as well get my money's worth – to sunbathe.  It is now a fine, clear day, but the wind is quite fresh, and I didn't feel very sunshined.

Which is just as well, as it forces me off my backside over to the Egyptian Museum – without guidebooks.  I just wanted to look and remember – and discover.  It was almost strange seeing the Pharaonic stuff again – I feel quite distant from it.  But it was also delightful the way it meant more – both in terms of new facts, but also context.  I also saw things I'd missed the first time.  Like the ubiquitous Hathor, like the cuneiform tablets found at El Amarna, like Tut's trumpets.  And all the names and places and times and shapes made sense.  The old dinner bell went far too soon.  So, nodding to the giant Amenhotep and Tiw, I spent the last few minutes in front of old fish-chisel – Narmer's tablet.  I still could not get over it – or the miracle of its survival .  And even here I noticed something new: tiny Hathor heads on the king's girdle.

So, a good ending.  As was the rest of the day.  Back here for a work out in the gym.  I soon felt sick even though I'd not eaten anything.  I was a little disconcerted talking to a bloke there with a crutch.  Talking to him, it turned out he'd broken his neck in a motorcycle accident – two years ago – and was still recovering.  I thought of yesterday, and what might have happened to me…

Then a quick sauna (in swimming trunks – pah) – and then a full body massage (a bloke, of course) which felt really good. Then a bath (as recommended), watching the sunset, dinner (at Felfela – weak, and indeed not as good as yesterday), then here to pack, prepare for tomorrow et al.

11.3.90 Cairo airport

Well, here we are then, drinking mango juice.  A cloudy morning, red eye of Re again on the way here.  Tragically, I didn't sleep well – far too hot and dehydrated.  But otherwise hotel good.  I've not written about it before: huge – around 600 rooms, like a small community, endlessly bustling – you can see why people set novels in them – they are a society writ small.  Cost about £90 all told – including massage…

Sitting here, feeling immensely calm, worldly-wise and – just a smidgeon – above it all, I watch the people.  I see the nationalities in the raising of the hand, the ageing of young women into sharp-faced hags.  And in my eternal lip-reading, I see that the office (NB for "Doing the Business") is also a paradigm of life: those who command, those who obey, the tiny signs that indicate both.  Thus in a young couple (married), the delightful wife looking a little Egyptian with her long wavy hair: she commands, she is stronger.  And you can tell in the cant of her head: it is the angle I too adopt in the office.  As "officer" (NB: office ↔ office – business and rank).

A passenger at the airport.  A man, above average size, thickset, fattish, late 40s.  His head shaved (today, judging by the cuts), nicely tanned, large and smooth.  But at the neck, through the fat there, the skin had made a large, single fold, four inches across.  As he moved his head, it opened and closed like a hideous mouth, or something leech-like.  Horrible.  Watching the married couples here, I am afflicted with a tremendous (patronising) tenderness for them in all their frailties.  Like watching a stumbling, hopeful child.

I have never finished a holiday feeling so fresh: normally I have drawn heavily on my stored resources.  In part this is because I have not been unwell: my guts have coped admirably.  It also has to do with the size of Egypt: it is nothing compared to India.  India exhausts by its vastness.  Note too that Egypt is essentially one dimensional: the Nile.  This makes its conquest - by invaders and tourist – far easier than two-dimensional lands.

I cannot stop "Egyptian Romance" pullulating in my head.  My books are like children who demand attention: they don't want to wait. Flying up the coast of Italy, the country laid out like a papier-mâché model.  A pool of shaving-cream cloud.  We follow the highway: tracing the smeared snail-slime of an earlier plane.  The Alps now fringe the horizon.  

Final thoughts from Egypt: how pedestrians running among traffic would suddenly align themselves in bands – like electrons in quantum states.  That smell of cigarettes.  The other smell: horse dung.  I really feel Egypt has given me Europe.  Why?  Egypt has been a constant presence to all European history – although colonised, it lay there, always waiting, always enduring longer than any empire.  

Nearer the Alps: growing in my field of vision.  The problem with Durrell – good as he is – is his claustrophobic limited vision.  I longed for more than Alexandria…a warning to monomanes.  Passing Matterhorn.  I must learn to fly, too.  Amazing how the Alps just stop.

1990 Egypt I: Cairo, Saqqarah, Giza
1990 Egypt II: Luxor, Aswan, Abu Simbel
1990 Egypt III: Asyut, Kharga, El Amarna

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